My Biggest Turn Off: Myself
Posted May 24, 2014 by anonymous | 305 views | 4 comments
I'm a twenty-two year old virgin. Yes I'm female, and Yes there is something wrong with me...I suppose. I've always remained aloof from guys; the cheery friend, breakup support, a guy's gal. I didn't flirt, and they don't try to hit on me either. For a long time I believed the usual suspects were at play: I'm ugly, I'm boring, I'm just not good enough for whatever reason... And while that may be true to an extent, I discovered an entirely different reason why I've been alone for so many years. It was me. Let me explain...when I was eighteen I was frustrated with never having had intimacy and asked my closest male friend to "experiment" with me. I was thrilled to finally touch a man, but every time he touched me....I felt sick. Literally repulsed. I know, you're probably thinking, "Geez she doesn't like guys." But It was actually because I found myself repulsive. I couldn't stop thinking " Oh god, I'm so gross, you can't possibly like this." It was then I realized I was the cause of my own misfortune. I hated my own body. Especially my skin. I'm African American, or black, whatever other name you want to use, haha. I never realized just how detached I was from myself, until that moment. Ironically, I don't dislike other black people or find them unattractive, It's solely self-oriented. Anyway, thanks for listening (reading).
Commented Jun 16, 2014 by anonymous
You need to keep your faith high on.
Commented May 24, 2014 by anonymous
What do you expect you dumb bitch? You are a nigger and everyone hates niggers.
Commented May 24, 2014 by anonymous
It might take a while to realize this age old truth, but beauty true beauty radiates from your soul. Make up and clothes only mask the ugliness of some people. Celebs and the faces of the world are no more beautiful than you, and in most cases they have people telling them just how pretty they are. A paid endorsement if you will, and that is like a political promise; as long as they themselves are benefiting they will say whatever is required of them. Work on your self confidence, you are denying a great someone your love and joy you will bring them.
Commented May 24, 2014 by anonymous
Wow,a Genuine confession. I hate myself too. I am white male, age 51, goood offspring/family and home. In God physical condition. F fair lifestyle, clean and productive. Average appearance. Idk, it may be some chemical or hormone our something we have. Thank You submitting.