omg...cant believe im doing this...but feel i have to tell someone. i still cant believe i actually went through with this!!!! this happend last summer. y'all will probably think im awful...but i need to get this out ok? now about me..im a really cute blonde, 5'2 130 pounds. i live in the usa. i haad just turned 18 when this happened....though im still in high school...i am 18. live at home still of course. now that thats out of the way...here goes ok? and ill keep it kind of short ok? well...for the last few years, ever since becky and i became best friends...every summer we would be at her grandads house every day....he has a big gorgeous pool. when we werent at the beach, we were at his pool. becky and i are such good friends, her grandad even gave me a key to the pool yard, so i could use it anytime. hes elderly and doesnt swim much. well last august, becky was at her summer job at the supermarket, and it was hot out, so i went to her grandads house for a swim. took a nice swim and was laying in one of the deck chairs getting some sun in my white bikini. well her grandad comes home, guess he heard the radio i had going, and came on the deck and sat down. hes always been nice to me and we were chatting and stuff. about where i was going tot go to college, etc. maybe i sould have seen it coming, because i caught him moer than once looking over my body..old pervert..lol. but i guess me being a little cutie who can blame him. well..he kept asking me about college, how i was going to pay for it and stuff. my family isnt poor, but still im sure ill have some huge college loans to pay off when i graduate. well he kept telling me how expensive college is, asking me about how i would afford it etc. he broughtit up alot. finally i asked him why he kept asking me that...and he was real nervous. he asked me if i could keep a secret..a total secret. he said he wanted to tell me one. i assured him i wouldnt tell a soul.i promised. i couldnt believe what was next. i had no idea where he was going with this. of course i didnt expect this.....he came right out with it. my best friends OLD, like 75 year old grandad...offered me money to have sex with him!!!!! i was in total shock. it was ALOT of money..but i was shocked. i didnt believe him and thought he was joking...so i asked him if he was...and he immediately said he wasnt...he wanted me bad. i first said no...telling him i was n high school...that im not a hooker etc. he really thought about this i think....he was ready for everything i said. he made me feel like doing it was the right thing to do...and i still dont know how. now he upped the amount of cash too..but that wasnt how it happened, well not the only reason. after like 5 minutes of him trying to convince me....i dont know what came over me....but , after asking how much hed give me again, i sid id do it!!! now i have no idea how descriptive i can be on here, so i guess i wont really go into huge detail. i mean if you reply and want to know ill tell you...im not afraid too. but when i said yes....we went into his house...he went into a room off his kitchen and returned with an envelope. i looked in and saw ALOT of money!!! ALOT!!!! i couldnt turn back now i guess. he walked to me and put his hands on my butt, in my bikini still. he started kissing my neck and feeling me up. i was scared, nervous and excited too. i mean my best friends bald, fat saggy old grandad....and im about to do this with him. it didnt really hit home that i was prostituting myself to this old man until he kissed me on the lips and made out with me...and told me that he thoguht i was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. i knew it was going to happen. well the old man took me up to his bedroom for over an hour....and , well, i let him do what he wanted. it wasnt as bad as ud think either..actually. and well..i got a huge boost to my college savings too. do i regret it...not sure totally. i think most of me doesnt regret it at all...nor the other times we met after. im a nice girl really. smart and all. part of me is confused....you know doing it for money, with an old man and all. id like to say thanks to anyone who reads my confession and hopefully not everyone thinks im a bad girl.