My anger is scaring me
Posted Jun 9, 2014 by anonymous | 341 views | 4 comments
I feel this anger growing up more and more as the years pass. There are a lot of causes of course, but one surely is my ex. I gave everything to him. EVERYTHING. I was there for him every time. And he treated me like crap. He betrayed me, he lied to me, he cheated me...and he also hit me more than once. He made me feel literally crazy, 'cause I understood when he was telling me lies or cheating, but every time I tried to face him he was screaming at me and telling me that I was just a crazy bitch. I'm angry with him for not really love me but just use me and the fact that when I fell in love with him he was totally a completely different person. I hate my self for have loved him and for have tolerate all of this in the hope that I would have seen the "real him" came back, as he was when we met. I hate all of this situation because I didn't understand that the guy I met was just a mask that was covering an horrible person. He abused me in every way, expecially psychologically. And what I hate most is that I let him do this, that I never reported him for all those time who he hit me, that this story lead me here to confess someting for which I'm also making a sort of victimism, even if now I have a new life and a new boyfriend that seems to really love me. And here I am....hoping the worst for my ex. I feel even more stupid when I read what I've just wrote. There is a lot worst in the world, and I know that. But he was my first love and he broke me.
Commented Jun 25, 2014 by anonymous
Your still alowing him to have control of you. Don't give him the satisfaction. You have a good man now. Move on. I did.
Commented Jun 22, 2014 by anonymous
Forget about him, he doesn't deserve you. You deserve someone that loves you.
Commented Jun 16, 2014 by anonymous
Report it! He could be continuing it with someone else. Plus, I'd think getting him thrown in prison is pretty good revenge.
Commented Jun 10, 2014 by anonymous
He only hit u cuz he loved u crazy bitxh