My alter-ego is becoming me.
Posted Feb 7, 2012 by anonymous | 663 views | 6 comments
I have a fascination, no, more like an obsession with pretending to be another person. Not a real person, or even a model of a real person. Just another "me", if you could even call it me. My obsession reaches as far as *becoming* another person, in the way a method actor may become their character. A self-fulfilling prophesy. One of the alter-egos I have created has become such an integral part of my being that I can no longer distinguish what I fabricated from what is real about myself. I have put intensive time and research into becoming this other person. I'm talking years. I wish I could make IDs for these characters so I could play them in more settings. I often spend days living the life of my alter-ego and I think I might be crazy. I don't want it to stop, but I think it may cause problems in the future with my relationships. I can't stop. The urge to transform myself into a character of my own twisted stories will always be burning inside of me. I don't hate who I am. I simply enjoy playing many different characters and all of reality is an opportune stage. I can't tell anyone I know, but it feels good to tell someone, anyone. Thank you for taking the time to read this, kind stranger.
Commented Feb 8, 2012 by anonymous
-ADDED TO THATT! I WAS PREGNANT WITH BABIES AND MARRIED IN MONTANAA. FUCK YEAHHHH, I REGRET NOTHINGG!!!
Commented Feb 8, 2012 by anonymous
I HAD AN ALTER EGO AND IT WAS AWESOME. I WAS KIK FLIPPING BITCHES AND I WAS LIKE :'WOAHHHHHHHH BAACK THE FUCK UP BITCHES!' ;D
Commented Feb 8, 2012 by anonymous
Concentrate on what you are. Just be yourself, try to remove egoistic behavior.
Commented Feb 8, 2012 by anonymous
i agree with what the writer of the previous comment it's what we all do, everyday however, if you do not like the character you play then you are free to change roles and this may be, just what you are doing, the lies will get you in the end or rather much sooner than the end so stop with that self fulfilling prophecy. yes. that's what it is. you create yourself in the image of how you want to be personalities are just how we act what really matters is what you do what you are is always in a state of changing, and is defined by more than just your moods, and isn't really definable until after you die, we are always 'becoming'--- until our last breaths then what we are,---is what we will become after we've gone, your alter ego is not the big problem the ego itself is what is causing you to lie about who you are but actually you are not lying about who you are, you are only lying about who you have been that is to say, unless you play your alter ego role with an accent or a fake limp, complete with dramatic stories of how you got the limp the ego part is what you need to rid yourself of it is much stronger and deceitful than any of us think it does not have our best interests in mind ------play the role you want to play be the person that you would hope other people would say that you were after you are gone if you know that we our own architects our own playwrights then write yourself the best play you can a play or a film you would enjoy watching with a character of integrity and with admirable qualities just stop lying about your past trying to be something you're not its the ego making you lie it's here in your words too: '…..in the way a method actor may become their character. A self-fulfilling prophesy…. '...I wish I could make IDs for these characters so I could play them in more settings'... and in this comment you show how really confused you actually are: '...I don't hate who I am. I simply enjoy playing many different characters and all of reality is an opportune stage....' maybe you do hate yourself but it's just the ego it wants you to feel bad so that it can feel good that is how it works maybe you don't define ego this way but it might be time for you to start to redefine it you will find that you will like yourself more hell my ego- is all over this comment i could go back and change every time i said 'you' to 'us' then it would be better and i only say 'better'because when you present ideas to people they are better received without ego i am no better than you or anyone else i am flawed as well be whatever you want to be just don't stop trying to be a better you ugh. --------i think my head is going to explode and i think i hate myself too i am a fool i know nothing i am a liar too this comment is more for me than it is for you thank you to me then again i just say this shit without a filter i am probably wrong FTW do whatever you want
Commented Feb 7, 2012 by anonymous
Personality isn't 'real' in the sense that it exists - it doesn't. Personality is artificial and is either given and accepted or adopted and accepted. Any time you say ' I am this or that' you are creating or re-inforcing the personality you either ended up being given by your friends, peers, authority figures and cuture. The problem with you is that you sound like you want to be a bunch of people - Sybil. It has been my experience that it's better to choose one character and be that.
Commented Feb 7, 2012 by anonymous
your alter ego isn't becoming you, your alter ego is you. what you're describing is just an exaggerated verion of what everyone does, every day. we all have different personality traits we enhance or suppress depending on circumstances and company. the way you are with your friends is usually very different from the way you are at work. i myself have at least four different aspects or personas. i even identify them differently by name. usually variations or derivatives of my real name or my nickname. sounds to me like you've just taken it further by creating a character to go along with the different personalities. creating a fake background to go with these characters is a slight worry. if you're very concerned and honestly can't keep track anymore, ask your family. they will know better than anyone what is true or false about your life.