miss my sis
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 85 views | 0 comments
In March of this year i lost my sister to cancer.Her and i were not very close as we never really saw eye to eye on many things but the love was still there.The last few months before her death i realy shut her out as i felt the only time she needed me was when she needed something not just to be my sister.what this all comes down to is i never said good bye.I got a call two days before she died and my brother inlaw told me she wanted to see me and i never went.I feel like a looser and a very bad person, she is gone now and ill never get the chance to tell her that i loved her and how i just wanted to be the one she came to for all she needed . I wanted her to need me ,i wanted her to know that there was nothing i wouldn't have done for her.I cant seem to get over what an asshole i was,How come i couldn,t look past my own feelings for hers and now that i see how dum i was its to late.I realy miss you sis and i am so sorry.Why was i so dum? If i could just make her laugh one more time.I was good at that, even when the pain of her cancer was so deep i could pull a joke out of my ass if i had to just to make her smile.I just wonder does she know that she ment more to me then i knew.Its so true you don't know what you have till its gone.R.I.P chick woman till i see you again love you always .J
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