Middle-Aged Teenage Problems
Posted Apr 21, 2012 by anonymous | 504 views | 3 comments
I'm in love with my married best friend. She was in love with me too, but we never did anything because we didn't want to physically betray our significant others. Around New Year's, we had a falling out over something so stupid it's not even worth bringing up. It was mostly my fault, but it's something that she blew out of proportion. She didn't talk to me for a couple of months, and we work together, so that was fun... she is talking to me a bit now, but nothing like before, and I just can't get a read on her. She blows hot and cold - some days she's warm, and the next she seems to want nothing to do with me. Most times she looks at me with contempt in her eyes. I want to have a conversation with her about this - even if nothing is ever going to happen between us, I would still like to be friends. Even if we can't have that, I would at least like us to part on good terms. We were so close, and then in a heartbeat we weren't and I just don't understand it. I'm in my 40's, and I haven't been in a situation like this since I was in my teens. It's ridiculous. Nonetheless, I'm sitting here catatonic every night, completely heartbroken. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I've lost my will to do pretty much anything. I've even let my thoughts go to dark places (no... I would never kill myself, but I'd be lying if I didn't pray to not wake up in the morning). I can't take this... I can't tell my gf about it, obviously, but she wonders whats going on. I keep telling her I'm just overwhelmed with work stuff, but that excuse is only going to go so far.... I'm lost, I'm hurting, and I just can't find a way to move on. FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE.
Commented Apr 23, 2012 by anonymous
Friendship is forever. After all she is married woman, and you don't have to spoil her marriage life.
Commented Apr 22, 2012 by anonymous
just send her a message saying 'i'm sorry about letting our friendship die over something stupid. i miss hanging out with you. give me a ring and we'll grab coffee?'
Commented Apr 22, 2012 by anonymous
She dumped you; move on.