mei constituo extremus
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 129 views | 0 comments
Needing help I started posting on this site way back in the fifteen hundreds. Yes. I've been here that long. At first I posted for some help, then I posted in the form of comments. Some were helpful I'm sure. Others, in my mind anyway were funny. I had found a community of people, who much like me, needed help. We all do. That's why ultimately we arrive at the site. To confess. Or complain. Though I'm betting most of the regulars on here were confessors. I started making friends! This for me was unusual. I'd had no friends for over 15 yrs. I stuggle to let people in and allow myself to open myself up to others. This self imposed exile from real life was my fault. Because I struggle around people I locked myself away in a cab of a truck. Locked away so as I can't let people down nor myself. I became more and more reclusive as the time went by. So much so that by the time I realized that I want out it was too late. I cannot become what I want to be. All I want to be is normal. Like everyone you see on the street. But it'll never happen. But when I started making friends I thought that may be, just maybe... But no. I know I was a disappointment to you Gen. And I know I constantly say the wrong thing and upset you Phoenix. I'm sorry. Vic I'm glad I never upset you at least, eh? Anyway this is it. As the title says, my last post. Good luck with all you do. I wish, pray and hope for the best for everyone on here past, present and if you're lucky with this site, the future. I'm switching off the computer. Goodbye.
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