Ok this is my first confession here goes. So when me and my female cousin would have sleep overs when we were abut 4 or 5 we would play doctor and I guess some where in the back of our minds we knew how to have sex. But I would never get hard. So we kept having fake sex almost until we hit about ten.( guys and girls you might get wet and hard from this point on.). So at 10 we started having sex Ed in our schools and we were learning about how a guy gets a bonner and where babies come from but any way one day my cousin was over and my parents were out of the house and I typed in the word sex on the computer and of course it brings up porn so I called my cousin in so she could watch and she was enjoying it and asked what was in my pants so I said should I show you she said yes so I stood up unbuttoned my pants pulled them down underwear and all and showed her she looked at it and looked at the guys on the comp and said there's is bigger lol. But I asked is she would do the things on the comp with me she said yes so we went to my room locked the door and with my dick out she started to suck it wow did it feel great I was 10 and getting a BJ she chocked on it when it first went in but she got use to it. So I pulled out of her mouth and put it in her tight 10 year old pussy I couldn't really move back and forth to much she was in so much pain so we stopped for a while. When we were 12 we started up again we were both maturing we both had a bit of hair and she was starting to get her tits in. So one day in the summer my whole family was over at her house I was helping my dad was his car at my aunts house and I got wet so I went in to put dry pants on when I got out my cousin was in the living room watching tv. I sat down and she put head on my lap and I put my hand on her shoulder so she got up and dragged me up to her room. She locked the door and started to make out with me and we stared into each others eyes and said we loved each other so she threw me on her bed and pulled down my pants and my dick got bigger over the years so she pulled down my underwear and she was shocked how much bigger it got. She grabbed it and started to suck it and once again she gaged on it she stopped and laid by her pillow grabbed a massager and was teasing her pussy with it I climbed on her and started to suck on her tits she took out the back massager and I slammed my dick in her pussy she screamed loud but I stuffed a pillow in her mouth so I kept fucking her and she kept screaming for me to go slower so I pulled out and I asked if she wanted to try anal she said sure I barley even got my head in her ass and she made me stop. So I had her suck my cock till I cummed she was grossed out but still swallowed it. We laid next to each other naked and in each others arm until I had to go. My and my cousin stopped after that. One day she came to my house I asked if we were ever gonna have sex again she said no. At this point I was 14 she was 15 so we stopped. Now she's 17 I'm 16 and I still get hard for her I want her so bad but i don't know how I should ask. By the way if anyone has any suggestions please let me know she also has a boy friend and I have a gf