Emmy I love everything about you and I would never change a thing :(( -sis

There are actually people who care about helping those in as much pain as you are. It's clear that the emotional pain you carry feels nearly unbearable. If you are in a city/town that has a 'crisis line' give it a call, and you'll find an empathetic ear, and resources that will help you sort out the issues in your life that have brought you to this place of despair. It's easy for someone to say 'start working on changing the things you hate about yourself,' but those people typically have not been where you are. I have been so depressed, so ready to end it all, so immersed in self-loathing that I found myself at the top of a large bridge looking down, thinking about stepping over. Somehow, I decided not to - and that was 15 years ago. What stopped me was a random thought, and that random thought was a gift. Today, my life is completely different, and I'm proud of what I accomplished and how I've been able to help others find peace in their lives. Make the call - to a crisis line, to a suicide prevention phoneline, to a teacher if you're a student (or of school age), to a women's shelter, to a feminist activist group. The first person you speak to may not be able to personally give you guidance, but what you're asking for is a connection to someone who CAN help, and trust me - there are people who are willing and able to help you. The person who can give you guidance may not need to love you. Just trust that they will listen, and help you to take the first few steps to change. And that's all it takes - one or two small steps to get started. Good luck, and remember, if someone here didn't care, he wouldn't have written all this, JUST FOR YOU. Even though I don't know you personally, the one thing that I do know is that you're worth helping (why? you might ask. Because you took the initiative to post here looking for help. You're worth it! :) )

Start working on changing the things that you hate about yourself. If you do not put positive energy out no one is going to be attracted to you. Therefore, no one will have the desire to get to know you or ever love you. Focus on the things you love about yourself and build on them.

If you are a fluoride-head king lover then you should hate yourself but If Your A 911 Truther then You are giving Others the chance to better Their life.