Me
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 113 views | 0 comments
I am completely skeeved out by personal relationships. I am skeeved out by my parents. I flinch away from them when they accidentally touch me. I feel like I am way too close to my best friend, so I have been avoiding her. I do not like eye contact. I do not like for people to know about my emotions, especially emotional weaknesses. My mom knows too much about me, so I want to run away from home and never speak to her again. I've realized that even though I've been infatuated with someone for almost a year now, what I really want is just to continue obsessing over him without him knowing, and maybe have sex with him once and then never talk to him again. The thought of a relationship pretty much parylizes me with fear. Every social situation I'm in is socially awkward. I feel ashamed and dirty all the time. But I'm terribly lonely. And I don't know what to do, because I hate anyone who gets to know me.
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