Losing Gma
Posted Jul 20, 2014 by foreverlost19 | 760 views | 4 comments
God, I feel so much pain from these thoughts that are plaguing my head. My grandmother is sick and dying and the pain that is inside is so overwhelming, I’ve never felt something like this before. And all I can imagine is having to watch my mother go through the lose of her mother and knowing that some day my daughter will be watching me go through the same thing and eventually she will be going through it herself as I lay sick and beyond help. It’s a scary feeling, being completely helpless and so afraid of the rest of your life, knowing that one day this will all be happening to you no matter how far in the future that day is. It’s so frightening.I’m lossing my mind, I can’t breath.
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Commented Jul 21, 2014 by anonymous
Shit happens and then you die.
Commented Jul 20, 2014 by Twist
I know how you feel. I went through the same thing when my grandpa passed away. It hurt me badly, afterwards I thought the same thing. I was scared for my life and wanted to be safe from death but then I got to thinking, one day I'll die, and when I do what then? Are those who are close to me going to cry? Are they going to feel they pain I felt? My family must have felt the same as me because the next day my family through a party instead, we all decided it'd be best to celebrate a death rather than mourn it. I thought even more. I want those close to me to party for my death, I wanna live in the now, forget whether there is an afterlife or not, do things that people will celebrate you for, do things that will give people a reason to live after you die. Something my grandpa told me before he died was out of all my family, I was the golden child. It gave me hope to go on, to try and make something out of my life.