Loneliness involving friends, family, love life
Posted Oct 30, 2014 by anonymous | 271 views | 7 comments
I graduated high school Three years ago, and since then, I have lost every "friend" i made. (if I could even call them friends) I've broken trust, and manipulated people all up to the point I am at now. I have over 600 "friends" on Facebook, each of which I have at least talked to in person in my life. But the whole thing is; lately, I want to talk to someone so badly, but i have nothing to say. I live each day going through the motions avoiding contact with people, yet I yearn for it so badly. I have never had a problem meeting people or having a stable sex life, but they've just all been acquaintances. or some girl I learned barely anything about, fucked, and immediately left. I cant keep a stable relationship, be it friends or family. I live my life to my own standards and for my own gain, because my philosophy has been that I alone will face my death in the end. and as a result I've destroyed every relationship I've ever had. I don't know what to do. quite honestly id just like to make a friend. and actually have someone say, he's my friend. I don't know the feeling of having a best friend. or having someone call you best friend. i haven't talked to my parents in years and have no idea how my sister is. and i wouldn't be able to tell you five things about the past 4 girls I've slept with (other than physical appearance of course) . I live a life full of human contact, yet I feel so soul-crushingly alone. this is my first time talking about this, seeing as i vent to no one, and silently watch social gathering places, never posting, never chatting, just observing. i want to reach out so badly yet know that my personality will end up in me feeding on someone and moving on like a parasite when gorged. I am alone.
Commented Nov 2, 2014 by anonymous
I was in same situation. But I had real friends , life long friendships and I just started escaping them all till I lost all of them. Now I got them all back. And how? It's simple, but takes a lot of time to decide to finally make a move. Try to find someone to talk to. Anyone. Even online will help. I found online friend who helped me a lot. You just need someone to support you and to understand you. After that you might think about contacting your sister. Depending on what happened , try to apologize , to show her that you care, that you need to be in touch with her. You just need to realize this: people are basically good. Show some respect , tolerance and be honest and they will appreciate that. We are all social beings and we all need someone , so I fully understand your situation. We all have periods when we focus on something else so we built up a wall around ourselves. Find gentle and understanding persons wherever and your life will change. I could not be happy without anyone to share happiness with, I had everything any girl could want , but it was worthless without friends. Good luck there and go have a wonderful life :))
Commented Oct 31, 2014 by Roddie
Help me!
Commented Oct 30, 2014 by anonymous
How? Tell me.
Commented Oct 30, 2014 by anonymous
I can't help it but to envy you. I wish I had one girl that would hold to me. To have so many, I really envy you. You are the kind of person I would like to be around.
Commented Oct 30, 2014 by anonymous
You are alone, dude. That's the way it is. As for chicks you have the right idea, find 'em, fuck 'em, forget 'em!
Commented Oct 30, 2014 by Roddie
If that is me then clue me in.
Commented Oct 30, 2014 by anonymous
i can help