I've had it. I was told by other people to ask for help if you need it. I've always had a hard time doing that. My life is falling apart right before my eyes, so I finally bring it to the attention of a family member. They give me nothing but a billion reasons why I don't need anybody's help right now. I'm drowning quick, and apparently nobody's going to save me but myself, and I can barely take care of the little things right now, let alone the big things. They don't understand that I need a boost to get started, some support, not lectures or life's lessons. I think I've learned enough of the hard ones already, thank you very much. They say, 'get a job'. Why is it so difficult for a person to understand that you need a properly working vehicle in order to accomplish that? I was suppose to have a frickin' job, and that seems to have fallen to the wayside, if it ever actually existed in the first place. My dog is scratching her ass off because I can't even afford flea medication right now. There is no more IRA, or Mutual Funds, or Stock Accounts left to fall back on. I'm screwed and could lose everything I've worked for all my life at the drop of a hat. What do I hear, 'at your age, you should be well on your way with a career'. DUH! Did everybody forget so quickly that I damn near died, and it scared the living crap out of me? So yes, I was agoraphobic for a couple years as a result, and it's still hard for me to leave my home. I suffer from PTSD from sexual abuse as a child, and an ex that tried to kill me. As a result of that, I developed an anxiety disorder, took meds, got addicted, and turned to natural supplements instead. So, I still suffer, but I'm determined not to turn to drugs or alcohol to relieve that. They say God helps those who help themselves. Well, I can only seem to help others right now, and yeah, that helps, but it's not getting me anywhere. I seem to be the person elected for making everybody else happy, and solving their problems, but where are these people when I need them the most? They seem to disappear into the woodwork and are cool with that. I give the example to my family that I watch other people's families help them despite their mistakes, all ages, and that I wouldn't let my own children go without simply because I think they need to learn some kind of valuable frickin' lesson. They tell me that's not right. WTF?