Lies
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 135 views | 0 comments
The whole thing is built on lies. I know you cheated, I know you didn't really threaten him with the knife, I know I know I know. And I lied about believing you, I lied when I said I didn't know anything about those guys theatening you. I sent them, you bastard. I lied a lot, you lied a lot. I need to stop caring goddamngoddamngoddamn. When I found out, about you cheating, I started sobbing. Weird, right, the girl who never cries. Went into the bathroom to make myself throw up but just ended up coughing up blood. Smiled at my mum and got in the shower, that night snuck out and chain-smoked, sawing at myself with a kitchen knife and mumbling at the lamppost, tiny prayers in the april air. It's been years since I was upset enough to hurt myself. And I hate that I can't hate you. The whole thing's built on lies. It's a matter of time before it falls apart. I hope the house of cards lasts a while yet. I'm going to miss you.
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