just donno
Posted Sep 17, 2013 by anonymous | 295 views | 1 comments
My best friend and I were always really close, but I didn't know how close we could be until it feels like I now know nothing. After being close to her for 5 years, she acted distant all of a sudden. we fought for a year. she moved away to her Gfs. Right before she left, was the first time I was attracted to her. I didn't want to say anything because I wanted her to be happy. She came back to visit and she said she didn't have feelings for her ex. For a year things spun in circles. she said one thing and something else happened. it has been over a year now and I don't know what was a lie and what was true. Have I been sucked in to this situation and manipulated by her and continue to be when I say lets start fresh when she has no intention of a future? is she now using me for sex and to hold on to me because the other day, I was going to walk away? she always gets what she wants, but why does she want me? Is it real love for her or power? is this a lie? she can't plan anything long term...why? should I just tell her forget it? why does she never express herself? I just donno what to make of her. I can't say if it is her or me who is the fucked up one here. I can't say where the live is really now.
Commented Sep 17, 2013 by anonymous
That is the truth e life. You have to accept it by the truth.