
It's never over until it's over.
Posted Apr 4, 2013 by Sinfool | 153 views | 0 comments
It's never over until it's over I suppose. I hear that saying all the time but I never really registered what it meant till now. When is it really "over" in relationships? If feelings are involved, as long as they remain, it's never really "over" am I wrong? I need help. I don't know what to do any longer. I haven't talked to the guy I'm in love with for a week now even though it feels like months. I stopped talking to him because he offended me with certain language (even though it wasn't targeted at me). He hasn't texted me back since and we've been talking for about a year now. I know that sounds horribly silly to read, but consider this much. We have on and offs every once in a while, and with this guy, I have to have my offs in order to allow him to really get to know my ticks and problems in certain areas. I've tried so hard to be exceptional with him. The bigger person. I always want to know what bothers him, I want him to communicate so I can make compromises for him, and I'll do just about anything to see him happy. His needs are ahead of my own- that much is certain. I've gotten two calls on a blocked number on two varying days, and I can't help but believe it's him. This has happened last time we stopped talking for about a week. It would mean he misses me. And I can't begin to tell you just how much I miss him. But if you're wondering why I cannot write to him first after resisting for this long, it's exactly for the reasons I've already described. I'm always making exceptions even though I'm not that person. I've given up/would give up/do give up so much for him. Is it wrong that for once in my life, I need the reassurance that if I'm really that worth it, that he can overcome his stubbornness and his own pride to even say something as simple as a "hello" to me? Is it wrong of me to put that to the test? I'm so in love with him. But I'm not like other girls. I can be strong about it. Kill me as it may in the inside, I will be strong about it. But am I making the right decision? I need your brutal honesty because as much as I love my friends, for compassion's sake, I feel that they might hold back on some aspects. Thanks. Every passing second feels like the most excruciating hurt I've ever experienced. That's how I know I'm in love with him.
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