Irdk what to do anymore.
Posted Sep 22, 2013 by KaleidescopeDream | 202 views | 0 comments
Ok, this maybe quite long but I just have to put it out there. I have a boyfriend who I've been with for quite sometime now and I love him dearly. I also lost my virginity to him. And to be quite honest at times I feel like it maybe the only real reason he and I stay together. We go through a lot and at times I just feel like it's too much but I stay because I'm afraid of being with someone else. At least for the most part I can expect the bs that he says and does.... But the bigger problem is that I left my first love for my current boyfriend. My first love was a complete jerk and at the time my current boyfriend seemed like my Knight in Shining armor rescuing me from my ex. But now that I see him for all that he is at times I miss my ex. My ex is constantly messaging me on Facebook and always wants to spend time with me. And once I let him come over but absolutely nothing happened. I was too nervous and I just don't feel right getting close to any guy other than my current boyfriend. But something in me misses him and wants to be close to him again. Something wanted to let him touch me and I don't know why. My boyfriend has forbid me from talking to him so everything is very secretive when it comes to my ex but there are obviously some underlying feelings for him that don't seem to be going anywhere and I'm just not sure what to do or how to feel about anything. =/
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