insecurities rule my life...
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 148 views | 2 comments
I try so hard to act strong, to tell you and the world that I'm ok on my own, that it doesn't matter that you live half an earth apart from me, that my life is going to go on just as fine with or without you so you don't need to worry about me. But the truth is I'm scared to death that being so far away from you is going to kill the wonderful relationship that we have. I can't help but interpret every little thing as a sign that you and I are drifting apart, that we are not as close as before, that eventually you are going to leave me. I keep telling myself to have to trust you, and I do...but still I'm so afraid that being out of sight I will also be out of mind soon. I imagined that one day, and I thought that maybe I can just let it be...but more and more I've realized how heartbroken I'll be if that one day arrives. And still I don't know if one day you'll finally love me.
Commented Aug 24, 2011 by anonymous
You sound like a fucking clingon and not the Star Trek type either.
Commented Aug 24, 2011 by anonymous
wow. it's like i am reading what (i am always hoping) my ex would say to me. your post was the first time i've been through this site. thought i could send some encouragement your way. you are strong. go after what you want. every time those pesky insecurities come up, and when you interpret and twist them to (sorrowfully) validate the fear that you aren't worthy, the fear of rejection, the fear of what might come... TELL THEM!!! the one who listens to you, accepts you (as. you. are.) and wants to move with you through this... loves you and wants you. hope this helped a little. there is freedom from fear and insecurity in the deep and intimate Love of God. the Father, through Jesus and His Spirit, Loves you. inside and out. He. accepts. you. you. always.