Insecure
Posted Nov 15, 2012 by anonymous | 292 views | 5 comments
When ever I think about it, I'll go into the bathroom and stare into the mirror. I'd tell the face I'm looking deeply into, that she's beautiful. I'd tell her that I love her and that I want her, and that no one really understands her as well I do. What starts off as awkward, become almost intimate and warm. Like as if I'm dying to have this mirror image in my arms--all to myself.. And after minutes of talking to her, and studying her, looking for even the most subtle movements, I gain nothing worthwhile. Only little chuckles. Dead stares. Watery eyes... "Yeah, right." She says. "You know what you are. It's not working." She doesn't believe me. No matter what I do... I don't--I CAN'T believe anything good that I have to say to myself. Maybe it's because of how fucked up the world is right now... There's so much shit that's wrong out here, convincing myself that I'm worth something will have to come some other time.
Commented Nov 27, 2012 by anonymous
Cool! That's a clveer way of looking at it!
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
It's hard not to though. I'm not strong-minded. --At least, not yet. Thank you for replying to my post. :D
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
I agree and I really appreciate your reply.
Commented Nov 17, 2012 by anonymous
I used to be like that. I used to do the exact same thing you do, and I still do it sometimes, just not as much as before. Somwhere along the road I realized that whether Im beautiful or not doesn't Matter because I have seen the weirdest and uglyest of people find love and if they can do it then there must be hope for people like you and me. Thats the beauty of this world. Everyone can find love. It's just a matter of where to look.
Commented Nov 16, 2012 by anonymous
You need not to feel insecure dear.