I met this guy in freshmen year. He was really shy but I managed to get him to talk to me. He was really cute and a really kind guy. Like seriously kind, and innocent. I know many types of guys but he was honestly nice. So freshmen year, we were friends. I never had any feelings for him at all and never really though about him. He would at times follow me around and hug me. I never really thought about it much till now. Sophomore year. I don't really hang out with him but we are still somewhat friends. Every time he sees me he would hug me, hold my hand, and/or call my name to get my attention. This was when he broke up with his girlfriend, but I never even knew he had one since I don't update on him. When he did that to me, I thought he had feelings for me because I'm also a guy. I'm actually gay but I never had feelings for him. There's no type of guy that I know that would hug a guy or hold his hand. When he did that to me I actually kind of pushed him away because I wasn't really close to him. Junior year (present). So I have two classes with him this year. Other years I never had any classes with him. Him and I sat very close to each other so that we can talk everyday. This was when I knew I was in love with him. I loved the type of person he was and everything about him. He was still very kind to me in the beginning. Soon I learned he had a girlfriend which kind of made me sad and jealous, but I never really thought about it. In this year of school, I've been considerably mean/rude to people and my whole personality changed because of life problems and the lack of sleep. With my different attitude in school, he started treating me differently. Our whole relationship changed. I became sour towards him and he became sour towards me. We were friends but we were still rude to each other, which made me sad considering how much in love I was with him. He would always make fun of me and attack my insecurities (make fun of my acne, clothes, and calling me ugly). I knew to that point that he wasn't the person I loved. As days/weeks past, I keep fantasizing situations with him and I. I was in love with the type of person he was in the past, not present. I keep thinking about the old memories between him and me when we were nicer to each other. There are days where I'm sad and would cry about him. I hardly have a crush on anyone, he is my 2nd crush in my life. I have a feeling he is bisexual because of many characteristics about him, like I can tell when a person is gay or not. He was asked before if he would ever date a guy, he didn't respond. So yeah. I ruined my chances of being with him or being close with him. Is there any tips so I can fix our broken friendship? P.S. There's also this girl who always aggravates me this school year which is another reason why I'm mean this year. She is close with my crush and she turned him against me so that's how our friendship died down.