I had a high school sweetheart that I dated for a good amount of time and he was my world. We first met when we both got casted in the same play, Aladdin. I was a chorus girl/ dancer since I was studying ballet at the time and he was Aladdin.I thought he was the sexiest, sweetest most handsome guy on the planet and I never thought I would ever get to be close to him. He was so much smarter, cooler, more talented than I and hung around a totally different crowd of people. I always thought to myself I was just a chorus girl I would never be able to get him. But 1 year after the play had ended fate brought us together and my dreams came true. We ran into each other again through a friend of mine at a party and we were drawn to each other immediately. We started hanging out everyday and growing very fond of each other so we committed to a relationship right as I graduated high school leaving the summer for us. We had some amazing times that summer, he had been living in this extra house his father owned with a couple roommates so we really had a blast. But as all things end that summer did too and I was about to be shipped off to school 8 hours away from him. The day I left for school he looked me in the eyes and told me we would continue to be together and that he would see me Thanksgiving break when I came home. The weeks at school drug on without him until one day he showed up and bought an apartment for us right across the street from my school. He pack all his things, fought his family, and drove 8 hours so we could be together. I was ecstatic! So we started living together and things were great until the drugs and the lies. Living in a big city by ourselves was hard enough but he ended up getting all wrapped up in the college party lifestyle and was doing hardcore drugs all the time. I tried to stop him but he wouldn't listen and would ignore me. On top of the drugs I found out he had cheated on me with 2 other women in the time I was in school and he hadn't moved yet. My life was a mess. I was in debt, dealing with a drugged out bf and in school 8 hours away from anyone I really knew. I finally told him I had enough and wanted to go back home. I left him, left school, and left my dream of dancing. 1 year later I'm still at home but I'm dating another guy now and we just moved in together. I love him very much he has helped me get through some of the toughest times in my life and he's already told me that he plans on marring me. The problem though is that when I moved back home so did my ex I was living with at school.I've heard from his mom that he ended up going to rehab to clean himself up and got him a solid job. Even better though, he calls me 3 times everyday asking for my forgiveness. It's been a full year and he's tried dating someone but I've heard he couldn't even go through with it for a week. He says he loves me and would give anything to have me back. As much as I want to just leave my bf and go back to my ex I feel like the same thing would happen again. The drugs, the lies, and the foolishness. I don't want to be in pain anymore but at the same time my current bf and I just don't click the same way as my ex and I did. We were in love, true love. Sometimes I lay awake at night and try to convince myself that I'm better without him but most of the time my heart cries for him. I miss him so much. I miss our talks, his kisses, our summer together. I've had dreams about him every night and always look at past pictures of us. I can't look at my current bf sometimes because I just see him. I've tried letting him go and I still am trying but he's always going to be there and I'm always going to love him despite what my parents, his parents, my friends and my current bf say. I still love him and I always will, now and forever.