I tried this before but it never came up so here it goes again. I am open to some input. I met my husband when I was 17 and he was my first everything. Thing when really quick and he moved in after only the months (big mistake). After that I was trapped. Everything he had belonged to me. We got married when I was 19. We have no kids together mainly because I know I never want kids with him because of his temper. We have been together for 9 years in April and I want out of our relationship every day of my life. But I am too sacred he will hurt himself of I leave. If I leave I take everything. It all belongs to my parents. The house the cars all of the bug stuff. I did ask him for a divorce 2 years ago in a "dear John" letter. I know horrible not to do it to his face but I am weak willed when it comes to hurting someone. I wrote the letter over days and it said everything and that I was not happy. I left it and left with my sister to go on a day trip planning to stay the night with her. He called and called I gave in and answered. He threatened to wrap my car around a tree. So I stayed. About six months ago I ran into a guy I knew a long time ago. My middle school crush. At first site my heart let our of my chest. I avoided him as much as posible because I am not a cheater and do not wish to cheat. Even though my husband has said it is the only way I'll ever get him to leave. I just wanna be a good person. Anyway I'm good friend with his sister and have heard a lot about him and know his family. I have also had to spend more time with him lately than I feel is safe for me to not want with ever fiber of my being to cross that line and cheat with him. Every time we are in a room together I cannot take my eyes off of him and he cannot take his eyes off of me. But we don't cross that like. Conversation is casual and we never get too close. But I want too.