I know some of you will instantly dismiss this as a joke or whatever but, despite what you may believe, everything I am about to admit here is true. I am at present, 33 years old and for the past eleven years I have been in love with my younger half-sister. She is at present, 24 years old and we share the same father. We first met when I was 22 and she was 13. I honestly didn't even know she existed until my father got a letter in the mail from her one day saying that she was having troubles with her mom and would like to meet her dad. When her and I first met it was kind of awkward. I'm sure most can imagine that it would be a bit of a shock to suddenly meet a sibling you never even knew existed. Over the next year or so however, her and I grew very close to one another. Strangely, I felt a very strong bond with her that I had never felt with anyone before or since and I wanted to be around her as often as possible. We never did anything inappropriate with one another and at that time intimate thoughts about my sister had never even crossed my mind. I simply enjoyed her presence and her company. She was always very sweet and beautiful and fun to joke around with. She was also intelligent beyond her years and had no problems holding a conversation with myself and others in my same age group. We would always sit up on the couch at night and she would cuddle close to me while we watched movies together, and on more than one occasion she would come into my bedroom late at night because she either had a bad dream, heard something that scared her or she just didn't want to sleep alone. I can still remember how perfect it felt when I would wrap my arms around her and how I just knew that it comforted her and made her feel safe. Again, there was never any kind of sexual or otherwise inappropriate contact between us. I would never allow that line to be crossed! She was, after all, still a child at that point and in addition to the illegality of statutory rape, humans who take advantage of children in such a way are not even worthy of the dog shit in the tread of a dead hobo's shoes! Having grown up under extremely adverse circumstances myself, I felt it was my responsibility to deflect all of my father's negative tendencies away from her and back onto me in some sort of attempt to shield her from the abuse that I knew my dad was capable of. When I was just a few months away from turning 24 I met an amazing, beautiful woman and left everything and everyone else, including my sister, behind. Over the past ten years, however, I was never able to keep my sister out of my thoughts. Every single day, no matter where I was or what was happening, no matter how much I loved my girlfriend or how happy we were together, I always wondered after my sister; how she was doing? where was she? was she happy? I spoke with her briefly a few times over the phone during that time apart but it was always awkward and uncomfortable due to the fact that my girlfriend sensed that there was something more between my sister and I than there should have been. Finally, this past Thanksgiving, after ten years I got to see her again, and as soon as I did I instantly fell back in love! When we embraced each other in a hug it was truly the best I've felt in over a decade. The way she felt in my arms, the smell of her hair, the sound of her voice when she softly spoke "its so good to see you again, I missed you". My heart melted and I knew within that three second span of time that I would forever be doomed to a life of heart ache and sorrow because I could never love another person as deeply as I do my sister. I have never told her how I truly feel about her and I probably never will. I know that if I did it would completely alienate her from me and would cause so much tension that it would be irreconcilable. I love her enough to suffer silently within myself in order to spare her the level of discomfort and confusion that the admission of my love would create. The love I pine for is forbidden and this is my confession. I am in love with my sister and nothing can ever change that fact.