I'm very in love with my older boyfriend. When we started having sex I was 16 and he was 23. When I was still inexperienced at sex but yearning for it at the ripe age of 16 he would tease me in a way I didn't know he was trying to turn me on.. At the time I was still very shy when it came to sex and sensuality while he had folders of porno after porno, pic after pic on his laptop, including his phone, he lost his virginity at 8, and watched porn since 7. He would always give me this look that I never knew meant sexual desire. The first time he entered me with one finger I was sooo wet and I was soo tight. I wasn't a virgin but he asked twice and slowly pulled his finger in and out with this weird look on his face. Since there's a seven year age difference I felt nervous around him and shy about sex but I wanted it so bad. He has such big strong hands and I love him controlling me. In the beginning he would pull my body close and touch all my spots so gooood and say, "you like that little girl?" "you're getting so wet you naughty girl." "you like being a naughty little girl? You like it when I fuck you with this grown man cock?" "you like the way I play with you?" "you like the way I play with that little pussy." "it feels so good putting my cock in this tight little hole." and fuck me and it felt so good. When he looked at me in that way it kind of made me squirm and put my head down and the way he would say "come here little girl" and pull me to him would make me feel like I'm embarrassed, in trouble, turned on, and want to giggle at the same time. Sometimes his presence and the things he says are so intense and overbearing I feel like he's a parent and I'm a child and I have to listen to him and I really like it. It makes me feel hot and tingly down there. I feel like he's like an older brother because of age difference and the way he gives me advice but sometimes when I'm sitting on his lap and he's explaining something to me and holding me I feel like I'm a little girl and he's my daddy. I pout at him and wine at him and puppy dog him sometimes to get my way or just plain do it. It really turns me on when he touches me when I act innocent. We broke up when I was 17 and got back together after I turned 18. I'm now 18 and he's about to be 25. One day when he called me little girl in bed I told him I was too old for that and so its stopped but I miss it so much. When he cuddles me and puts his big hands on me it feels so good and I feel like he's my older brother or daddy and I just want him so treat me like a little girl and flick my pussy with his tongue gently while lightly placing one finger in me and tell me what a good little girl I am for letting him do these good things to my pretty little pussy and how beautiful he thinks it is seeing my cute pussy lips wrapped around his finger, how much he loves seeing his finger poking my little hole and how much he loves teaching me what it feels like to feel good. When I tried to tell him I miss how we use to have sex he said "I thought you said you were too old for that" Which really turned me on but he wont do it like he used to or say the things he used to. I love his hands on me and I feel like any girl would love for him to touch her. He's so good at touching its like his hands were made just for that. When I was 16 I asked him to put in a tampon for me after I got out of the shower because I heard some fathers ask their daughters if they need help doing that when they want to touch them and I wanted to see his face. He made a cute face like my vagina was the most adorable little baby after he put it in and just looked at the string hanging out until I said "awee" and he changed his face immediately. One time he made me feel so good by lifting up my legs at the ankle with one hand and wiping up and down my pussy over and over with his fingertips like how you would wipe a baby when changing a diaper. We're so open with each other. I can tell him ANYTHING.. We fight but he does everything for me. I would never touch a child inappropriately, I love children and I would never want anyone else to abuse a child, but I love feeling like he's touching me like a child. Like I'm just a tiny little girl who loves her daddy/big brother and he loves me so he makes me feel really good because I like it and I want him to. He just turns me on so bad but idk if he's actually perverted like that or if it's all me and my perverted thoughts. I've tried to hint that sometimes I feel like he's my dad or older brother but veeerrrryyy discretely. I don't want to tell him and he thinks I'm a super weirdo. Its confusing because he builds that urge in me by saying things like "awee" when I get embarrassed or have strong feelings or by sliding his hands down there when I'm acting shy but its not the same as it used to be. I told him my father touched me when I was 9 and one time when we were arguing he said "that's why you liked it when your father touched you." sometimes I wonder if my boyfriend would touch his daughter. I want to tell him how I feel but I'm afraid he'll feel really weird about me because I think I must have liked it when my father touched me even though I rarely think about it and tell myself I didn't. I just want him to touch me and fuck me like my vagina and body is a beautiful tiny precious thing that he must touch carefully and gently and well like he shouldn't even be touching it and kiss my pussy so softly like he's a father taking care of his daughters boo boo except more passionate and more sexual and I want him to tease me and embarrass me like a little sister. I also like the feeling of looking up to him.