I'm addicted to being a "catfish" :(
Posted Jun 17, 2013 by anonymous | 1544 views | 5 comments
For years I've been making fake profiles, pretending to be someone I'm not. When I was younger I used to be overweight and unattractive, so I started making profiles to compensate for the attention I wanted, but couldn't get. My friend Victoria actually got me into it...around, 7th or 8th grade. She would take pictures of urban models, and create a fake profile on BlackPlanet. She would get all kind of attention from guys, from messages to AIM, to even getting their phone numbers. She showed me how to do it, and then I became hooked. I moved from BlackPlanet, to Tagged, to Sconex, to MySpace and lastly Twitter. Over the years I've probably pretended to be well over 20 different girls. What really sucks about it is I build relationships with guys that I really being to develop real feelings for, even grow to love. And the same goes for them. But given the advancement of technology, it's much easier to be caught. Like, they could easily ask me to Facetime, or Skype, and eventually if I keep making excuses they'll realize I'm not who I claim to be. Especially since the recent popularity of the show "Catfish", it pretty much has taught everyone to raise suspicions at any given time. Since I first started making the profiles, I've lost a lot of weight and I'm fairly attractive. Sometimes I wanna come out and tell the people I've been deceiving who I really am, but I'm always afraid that they'll expose me. I did come out to two guys, and showed them who I really was...and to my surprised one of them is a close friend now, and the other was still interested in me regardless. Some of these online relationships have last for 4-5 years. And one guy I met when i was like, 13, at the time, he came to see me (I'd sneak him into the house) without knowing what I looked like, and grew to love me. We're still very close now.. I'm actually still involved with him and I'm 22 now. I'm even pretending to be someone on Twitter right now :( I've made a lot of people I would consider friends, but I wonder how they would feel if I came out and told them the truth? I just hate when I'm found out and I'm hurting feelings..because some of these guys are people I could actually see myself with in real life. I wish I could stop but I'm just having the hardest time. Making these profiles have held me back so much in my life. I just want to meet a nice guy and be focused on a REAL relationship instead of a fake one that will never happen. Do you guys think anything is wrong with me?
Commented Oct 25, 2014 by anonymous
From a former catfish. Just stop. You're compounding your problems. Trust me, I know what I'm talking about. You're hurting innocent people and yourself. Just work on yourself and find a real relationship. Just be awesome and eventually someone will notice and love you for you.
Commented Jul 18, 2014 by anonymous
YOMHT4 I loved your article post.Much thanks again. Much obliged.
Commented Jun 17, 2013 by anonymous
I feel your pain...
Commented Jun 17, 2013 by anonymous
Basically. You weren't getting attention, so when you were able to get it, even if it was not actually for being YOU, you enjoyed it, as most attractive females do. So now even though you consider yourself to be attractive, and think its the right thing, to come out and show who you really are, you don't want people to think of you differently, to not trust you, to "come at you sideways" and at the top of that, you don't want that feeling of being an attention holder to go away, because you know on the inside how good it has made you feel. I don't think there's something wrong with you, but you really should stop. At the end of the day, you shouldn't care what other people think anyways, who ever sticks with you even after you decide to come out (if you do) will show you who your real friends are, and if it were lust rather than love.
Commented Jun 17, 2013 by anonymous
the bible says catfish is unclean