I would be dead but...
Posted Aug 30, 2013 by anonymous | 243 views | 2 comments
I am so tired of being alive. I would commit suicide but i've never been in love and thats what I want. I wanna love and be loved. I hope that will give me a new perspective. I know beautiful things exist, they just dont seem to last. Like the stars are wonderful but you cant star gaze for more than a night until the morning light blinds you. I needed to say this somewhere. Secrets arent fufilling until somebody hears it.
Commented Aug 30, 2013 by anonymous
I have been in love or so I thought Nd then I was really in love and it is worth living for....despite the pain it brought. I know it will come again how it should and when it does, it is the most amazing feeling you will ever have. life is about ups and downs and there will be pain naturally, but live it to the fullest. don't focus on the pain, focus on the good. you can only really love and be loved until you can fully be yourself and know who u are and be happy with you. (doesn't mean you need to be happy all the time, but at least know you Nd be comfortBke in your skin). I overcame a lot of this actually by falling in love because I realized I needed to in order to do this. I went all in, but unfortunately there were a lot of issues but despite that it isnt working out how I had hoped, it still was one of the best feelings ever and with or without that person, I found a sense of happiness in myself. so live and when the time comes love but don't force it. just let it happen.
Commented Aug 30, 2013 by anonymous
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