I wish I was dead.
Posted Jul 5, 2012 by anonymous | 626 views | 8 comments
I'm an attractive 26 year old woman, fit and artistic. I'm constantly wishing I was dead though... I have a crap job and a family that won't talk to me. My boyfriend of 2 years has been cheating on me constantly and I only found out recently. I have no friends anymore and I am debt ridden. I can't afford to live on my own. Everyday I ask myself "what do I really want?" and every time I come back with "dead." I imagine being in the gym, or at work, and someone just coming in and randomly shooting me. I hope for car accidents. I dream that someone will come in and stab me in my sleep. Nothing I've done helps me improve my love life or economic standing and I feel so utterly useless and lost. And I wish someone, anyone, would end it for me.
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
I am sorry I can not help, just know that your not alone I feel like you almost everyday of my life.I do not have the courage to do it .
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
sorry your hurting i have felt like you most of my life 49 .I do know that medications have made it a bit easier . I suggest you go talk to a professional to see if you are suffering from depression. a chemical embalance which would mean with treatment it may control or lessen the feelings. I wish you the best
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
TITS OR GTFO.
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
Please don't be think negative. Forget all these thing what ever happen with you. Make new friend circle. Cheer with them.
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
Visit Nepal trust me.
Commented Jul 6, 2012 by anonymous
visit Nepal no joke
Commented Jul 5, 2012 by anonymous
So you're depressed and suicidal AND a coward...you want to end it, fine. But own your own shit and do it yourself. You're debt riddden? So what. It's called apart nine debt agreement. If you can't afford that, it's called bankruptcy. Not the ideal solution, but it is one. You can't afford to live on your own? So what. Neither can I. It's called sharing a house. Get housemates. Advertise for them . You can even do that for free. Your boyfriend cheated? Big deal, it hurts, but at least he wasn't beating you. Walk away, stop letting him emotionally fuck you over. Got a crap job? Go to night school get better qualifications and get a better job. No-one is just going to hand you a good job you didn't earn. Your family aren't talking to you? So what. Get involved in your community and find a new family. Seriously, all I'm hearing is whine whine whine. Sheesh, no one said being an adult was easy.
Commented Jul 5, 2012 by anonymous
listen to me, and listen to me close. I have worked with the Multnomah county sheriffs office for 4 years as a search and rescue volunteer. I have seen 7 bodies in and out of the career. there was a woman a while ago who jumped off of a cliff and we had to retrieve her body. she was beautiful. she was just confused, she wanted a suffering to end that wasn't even there. she didn't have to suffer, she was SO beautiful, I don't know why she wanted to make it all end, she had so much there for her, she just didn't want to reach that far. I want you to know that you can reach that far, even if it looks like you have no one to be with you, to help you, someone will come for you eventually. I promise. suicide isn't the right choice. stay with us a while longer, please