I'm 21 now and even though I don't live where this happened, it's with me always and I think if I share it I will take a load off? I don't know, but not being able to talk about something because of being judged or losing friends is a terrible feeling.I was fifteen and that probably be an innocent time, but I was always doing bad stuff. I had a best friend (we don't talk anymore) and we used to sleep over in her basement, sneak out at night and all sorts of stuff. We messed with boys, she was worse than I was and she taught me how to give oral sex to them, I thought that was cool, but never wanted to see the boys again after that. We tried fooling with each other, but that didn't turn me on and sort of made me sick a little. We were just bored and experimenting. We played lots of dare games and would laugh at how stupid we were. You think at the time, that you will forget stuff and it won't matter, but it does! She had this dog and I love dogs, he would lay on us and eat our food when we would watch mtv or movies. When we would hit each other with pillows or shove each other around, he would jump on us and it was hilarious. I'm not sure what kind of dog he was, but he was big to us then. He growled at guys when we let them sneak in the window, but never growled at girls, I always wondered how he new the difference. He also would shove his nose between your legs and we'd laugh and be embarrassed. If I was alone, I thought I wouldn't care, but it's embarrassing to have that happen with friends around. We were playing the dare game and the idiotic dog was always in the way. I dared her to touch his thing... so she flicked at him, but that wasn't much of a dare and I had to also and he didn't care. We fooled with guys, but had never had any sex really. If you walked around on all fours, like to get the remote, or anytime really, the dog would jump on us like we were dogs and he'd hump on us. My friend dared me to hold still and not stand up, which is what we did when he tried that. I was embarrassed by his doing that and said no a hundred times. She told me nothing would happen and I could dare her anything after. Ok, so I had underwear on and my t-shirt, so ok, it's only me and her. It was funny, but when I let him, he wouldn't do it? But that wasn't the dare, so we pushed other until he started jumping on us again and he got his front legs around my waist and tried to hump me. We were laughing like crazy. It got serious when my psycho friend pulled down my underwear and he actually got into me. It was funny until then! he wouldn't let me go and I couldn't get away from him. I was scared to death and it also hurt. I was half crying and half bitching out my friend and she was laughing at first and then tried to stop him with me. He wouldn't let me go until he was finished. I hated my best friend more than anything at that moment and I was going to tell my parents and I wanted her dog shot, I didn't know what to think about that. I was afraid she would tell everyone and I was so scared. She begged me not to tell and not to hate her. The only way I could think of making sure she never told about it, was to make her let him do the same to her. In the end that's what she did and I felt better about getting her back, but not any better about what happened. I stil think about it and how that ruined our friendship and changed my life. I feel dirty. My hands are trembling while I write this down on here and am thinking I should not send it out. Wow, even my breathing is nervous. All these years later, I think about that when I see male dogs and I hope no one ever plays around like that. It is something you can't get rid of. It seems like it might feel good? But it doesn't, I even have night mares about dogs and not being able to get away from them. And it does not turn me on. Well, at least I can confess this and maybe it will help. Please, don't fool with a pet like this.