I have this home girl an we'v been friends for decades, i left to Chicago an stayed for a few years than was forced to move back to my home town. I lost contact while i was gone but found her again on a social site, come to find out she has a daughter who is about 9 or 10 i think and she is just so adorable an sexy. I realized i started having sexual feelings for this little girl so i tried to keep my distance every time we met, at the time i had to see her often cause i was buying meth with her mom so that made it difficult. I was high one day an my home girl was in the back room somewhere while me an her daughter was chatting it up in the front room, next thing i know she jumped on my lap and i must have got the worlds biggest hard on, my mind panicked an i was gonna push her off me but for some odd reason i didn't and i don't know why, i started feeling on her ass as she giggled so i continued to feel on her, mostly tickling an rubbing than her mom walked in an said "get your pussy off him" an that was it, i got up an left with the mom. i thought the mom would say something about what she saw but it never came up so i went on about my day as if nothing happened but in the back of my mind i enjoyed touching that little girl more than i should, Since than iv been have theses strong urges to have sex with all kinds of younger girls an i mean young, from 4 to 10. I encountered the daughter again but this time her mother had to leave to get more meth for us to smoke so me, the daughter and her grandmother was all sitting in the living room than she jumped in my lap again an we started touching and playing with each other like lovers or something, keep in mind the grandmother was there an said nothing. After a few minutes or rubbing and tickling the daughter did something that shocked the hell outta me, she laid on the floor an spreaded her legs than took a pencil an started motioning it up an down as if it where a dick going in an out of her pussy, she still had her cloths on but still im sure her grandmother must have noticed but did nothing. Man oh man the thoughts i had running threw my head about what i was gonna do to this little girl sexually had me disturbed. Ever since she did that with the pencil i think about fucking the life outta her, sometimes i imagine me and her naked fucking like animals threw out the night, rough, hard, doggy, missionary, anal and shes just a little girl for god sakes. I think the best course of action is to keep my distance from buying drugs and seeing her daughter because im afraid of what could happen if i keep this up, im a well hung man an shes just a child if i end up sliding my huge ass dick in her what if she gets hurt and needs to see a doctor an they ask what happened? or if she starts walking funny people are gonna ask questions thats how everyone gets caught and i was never one for jail so im a stop while im ahead.