OKAY TODAY IS January 4,2013 and so far the year sucks ass !!! not that bad but nothing exciting! okay so I'm kind of sad 1.because my boyfriend of almost 3 years lives very far from me lets just say he's by NY and I'm by GA and this summer I'm going up there to finally be with him but I really want his mother to forgive me for what I have done to her !! she's really rude and not motherly like .. she's more of a 45 year old teenager and one day she said some mean things to my bf and I took it upon my self to give her a reality check about her boyfriend that is 14 years younger than her stays in jail but before this happened she really had pissed me off with her boyfriend like he told me to shut up and one day I was texting her and he replied saying whatever and I know it may not seem much to who's reading this but for me that's very rude 1st of all it wasn't his phone so I didn't say anything .. I just tried to be respectful but my mom told me if they don't respect you , u don't need to respect them.. so that specific day I shouldn't have went off and said all those mean things to her !! so now she hates me and I really regret stooping to her level because I want a future with him and now he's whole family thinks I'm some disrespectful ass little girl when really I'm not... what should I do I apologized , I refuse to kiss ass I just want her to like me like when she first did:(..OK 2.the guy (my boyfriend) is far like I told you but I have some deep serious insecurity problems and I feel like he's not the cutest guy in the word so he knows I'm all he can get so asks for my pictures and I honestly think my body is absolute disgusting. cant get anything better .. I am a good gf.i lke sending pictures so eventually he got me to believe wants and now he wants PICS OF MY VAGINA. which I admit is pretty cute but I sent him them today and all he said was I'm sleepy.the reason I have low self-esteem problems is because my ex told me I was so ugly and fat and he also said nobody would ever wasn't me :( what should I do or say about everything give me advice ....