I Kissed Her
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 90 views | 0 comments
Look I met with my former boss. It was just a happy hour. My girlfriend was at work. It was friday evening. She's older. She's married. We were good friends at work, me and this former boss. She's dark and short and lovely. She's got a great rack (I think.) a couple months back she confessed that she's in love with me and her husband won't let her call me or anything. Understandable. Of course that's all I need to hear that a woman's in love with me. Even worse that a married woman's in love with me. And that we were friends. I'm damaged that way, okay? I need to think sex is wrong to enjoy it. So of course this has just been a fantasy obsession. Anyway we met at this bar and talked and she just looked lovely. When we parted I hugged her. Too long. She did too. And her body pressed against mine. Too long. Then we kissed. Not long. Just a bit more than a peck. And on the lips. She said, 'Love you...' and I said 'Love you, too...' I feel awful about this all around. Look, I'm living with a woman to whom I owe so much. She's my partner. My best friend. She took in me and my child. I was wrong to flirt with my ex-boss and kiss her. I don't want to have secrets or live a split up life. They say people have affairs to hold relationships together. How true that is. I've been crazy for the last couple years to have just Somebody NEW. Somebody not fat and out of shape. But look at me. My finances are a mess. I'm getting old. To leave my girlfriend is what I ought to do, but I'm not able to. And for what? For the possibility of new sex? Fact is, I'm lucky to have her. We're probably lucky to have each other. She's fat and ugly and I'm a delusional loser. I flirted with my ex-boss and kissed her. I said, 'love you.' That was wrong. I'm sorry. Forgive me.
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