I just want to die
Posted Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous | 190 views | 8 comments
I always looked forward to college when i was younger, i figured that freedom, that sense of new beginnings would help ease away my anxiety my depression, everything, i figured my world would fall into place. i was wrong, so veryvery wrong, i am in a tremendous amount of debt, my mother is in a tremendous amount of debt, and i am a struggling C student. No-matter how i study or try, i just fail, my mother managed to get her college degree while raising 3 kids working and made the deans list every semester, my cousin was a straight A student who made plenty of friends and got married out of college. My family expects me to flit my way through this and succeed and do everything i ever dreamed and everything they ever dreamed but i can barley look at myself in the mirror in the morning without thinking about how much i want to kill myself. i have never felt like i wanted to keep on living, and now im sure i never will, like is work and debt and death, nothing more.
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
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Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
Keep your head up and shrug off the haters. You're comparing yourself to other people and that isn't healthy.
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
Your mother says she wants it.
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
What are you still doing on here? Get yo ass out there and find the nearest train tracks, pussy!
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
You have NOTHING, literally nothing to look forward to. A life of toil for a gargantuan debt.
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
Do some counselling it may help you will get though it. By the way im 13 so i dont know much about this but maybe you could like, get a full time job and stop collage for a bit? Maybe get a lone and pay it all off but only a small one to help you back in your feet? I wouldnt know just please don kill yourself i dont want that to happen :(
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
thats kind, really, but a person sitting behind a keyboard whom i've never met or seen or know cannot help.
Commented Nov 23, 2014 by anonymous
Stay positive. Ill help u