Hello all, I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about this, but maybe talking about it will help. I was also kind of wondering about this. I am a 26 year old male, I'm employed, I've been single for a bit now. When I was in grade 9 I met this girl and I really liked her. She was a brunette, but she always dyed her hair a little blonde, she had glasses, was a little overweight and had a nice big rack. We dated for a little over a year and never went beyond me fondling/fingerbanging her. I broke up with her, because I wanted to do more sexually and because I thought I could get further with someone else. Long story short, we both cried during the actual break-up part. Then a week later I immediately regretted it and tried to win her back, but she completely turned me down. Afterwards, I wrote a very angry, aggressive poem about her and posted it on an obscure internet forum. My friend (being such a good friend) showed her and there was talk about her filing a restraining order. As the years went by my emotions got more stable and now I feel a lot better then I did back then, but there was a long period (about seven years) where this situation hung over my head like a dark cloud. There were other girls that came and went. Over time I got used to feeling rejection. Now, I don't really feel strong attachments to anyone. But, I still feel something toward her, it feels incredibly positive and profound. There were a couple of times where I tried to re-establish contact over the years, but she would have nothing to do with me. She is married now and honestly I don't want to attempt contact. (At this moment). But, every so often I look at her pictures on Facebook and I just become overwhelmed with emotion. Nothing in my life has ever compared to the feeling of loss I felt in the few years after we broke up. I don't believe anything ever really will. To be completely honest I could lose my parents (I don't much care for them) and it would barely even register. I think half the people I know could be wiped out and it still wouldn't compare. I don't know how to feel about this, more importantly I don't know how I am supposed to feel. It all seems like a big mess and that I should just forget about it, but my feelings feel so potent. Can anyone relate to this?