
I hate you
Posted Jun 20, 2013 by anonymous | 188 views | 3 comments
He never listens. He is always violent. He always have something negative to say to me. He is always criticizing me, its like I can never do anything right. He thinks everything I say is dumb and stupid. If it doesn't fit in with what he says then it's not right. He is always threatening to hit me and beat me even though i'm his daughter. He used to hit me when I was younger. Everyone thinks that he is this great guy just because he is funny, play the game (PlayStation) a lot, he buys us stuff, and popular. But he really isn't. He is so fake around other people. If they heard the things he said to me, they would think otherwise. He even tried to get me to stop talking to my grandma (my mom's mom) because he wanted to hurt me. It worked when I was younger (11 or 12) because I stopped spending a night at her house. He had me thinking that my grandma hated me and that she didn't want anything to do with me. It turns out that she didn't and that she actually loves me a lot. She even tells me that she loves me every time we are talking on the phone. He is such a horrible person. I dread father's day every year because I have to get him something. I try to pick out a card that is super vague every year. This year I got him a card from our dog that says "You must be part dog" (Lol I wish my signature was on that card but I just couldn't do it and I ended up just putting my dog's name) My mother is so blind, she thinks that he is this excellent man. I want to tell her just because he is a good husband doesn't make him a good father. I'm scared of him half of the time. Being scared of someone does not mean that you respect them and that is what my father is failing to realize. I do not respect you! My parents need to understand that buying their children things doesn't mean that you are good parents. They don't even know me that well. The only things I can talk about to them are video games and celebrities. Nothing about me personally, nothing that I am dealing with. It's like they are sugar parents! We lost our house a couple years ago because of the recession. We are still middle class but we're broke. I wonder if they still feel like they are good parents, because now they really can't afford to buy us anything. Using their logic the answer would be no "BECAUSE MONEY IS EVERYTHING AND AS LONG AS YOU'RE BUYING YOUR CHILDREN MATERIALISTIC STUFF YOU'RE GOOD PARENTS RIGHT MOM AND DAD". But since we lost our home I felt like me and my mom has gotten closer but not really that close. I think that if we were homeless and not living in apartments we would be even more close. Speaking of closeness, my parents think that we are very close because I hardly hung out with friends when I was in middle/high school. They must be DELUSIONAL! From what I can recall, I didn't hang out with friends because it was a fucking hassle getting permission from you. When I came to you to ask if I can go to such and such house/bbq/birthday party a few hours later I would get in trouble for some made up bullshit, you would hit me and I wouldn't even want to go anymore. Or sometimes, you wouldn't even want me to go at all and we would argue about it. Or even worse, I would go with no problems at all but later you would make me feel guilty and stupid for going. The only times that I could hang out with my friends with no problems is when I would go to church with my semi-religious friends. I didn't even want to go to fucking Church! I gave up religion when I was 10! But you would know that if we were close. So No, saying we are close because I didn't hang out with friends does not make any fucking sense. I really had no choice. To hang out with friends it was either church, argue, psychological games, or getting hit. I felt lonely at home when I was a child and now that I am in college, I go back home for some breaks and it just sucks being there now. The thing is the friends that I make would be my true family and you would just be strangers that just so happen to give birth to me.
Commented Jun 21, 2013 by anonymous
Has your father ever fucked, fingered or licked your pussy? Let him do that and things will improve. Let him stick his cock up your tight asshole and shoot his cum deep inside of you. He will respect you more. Wake him some night by taking his cock in your mouth and slowly sucking on the head of it until his cums in your mouth. THAT'S how you gain his love and respect, just sayin'.
Commented Jun 21, 2013 by anonymous
That fuck up go see a doctor
Commented Jun 20, 2013 by anonymous
And also I just want to add that I can't even say I love you to them. I can text it because that is easy to do. But to say something untruthful like that is very hard to do. When I was younger, they would say it to me and I wouldn't want to say it back because I would be lying or when I did try to say it to them it would come out funny and weird. Then I would get in trouble for not saying it back (slapped, punished, etc). The thing is I could say it to my grandma and other people that I truly love all day long with no problems.