I hate myself and I'm happy
Posted Jul 18, 2013 by anonymous | 311 views | 3 comments
I've had a problem with this for quiet a long period of my life. Not all of it, I guess it just happened one day, or maybe over the course of a few weeks/months. Since I can remember it being important, I was unable to hold a long conversation with woman. I can't talk much with friends either. It's not that i don't want to, I have the same if not a greater sex drive than, most guys my age. I used to be funny and have all the friends I could ever need and then this happened. It's like a change in my very personality but it's only visible on the outside, like I'm trapped in someone else's thoughts and feelings. The strangest part is that I have no sense of urgency to escape this feeling. i have no problem with being alone, no problems laughing or smiling, I sleep and eat perfectly fine and get in more than enough physical exercise. It feels painfully dull yet entirely satisfying. Maybe it's just something temporary, something everyone goes through, at least that's what I hope.
Commented Aug 7, 2013 by anonymous
I know exactly what you mean, almost like you strive to have that feeling of being alone, like it's addictive
Commented Jul 19, 2013 by anonymous
Feeling yourself bad is negative thing.
Commented Jul 19, 2013 by anonymous
it is called "getting old" it will pass when you die