I hate myself
Posted Feb 21, 2012 by anonymous | 392 views | 5 comments
I feel like I let my mother down. After an extended illness, in which all of us took turns caring for her, she was starting to get better. Then she became ill again (terminally, we found out later. At the last doctor's appointment she found that she had cancer) and she didn't tell anyone, but I knew deep down that she was dying. I was in total denial and instead of staying with her and comforting her in what would be her final days, I bitched about my problems with my children and I left. I complained that I wasn't feeling well when it was obvious that she was suffering. When she finally did go to the hospital a few days later I got there late and left early. She died that night. I never really got to say goodbye. After all of the unconditional love and support she gave me I wasn't there for her when she needed it most. I hope she knows how much I loved her and how grateful I am that she was such a fantastic mom.
Commented Feb 25, 2012 by anonymous
i hope you never find love, because you do not deserve it. go troll somewhere else. this is a place for healing, not hurting.
Commented Feb 25, 2012 by anonymous
Do not read the post above this one. if you did, this person is a 'horrible person'. Your mother loved you, and she knew you loved her. all parents do. do not beat your self up on this.
Commented Feb 23, 2012 by anonymous
While they're alive, parents usually feel some guilt that they could have done more for their child. Once the parent dies, the child usually feels guilt that they could have done more for the parent. This is normal.
Commented Feb 22, 2012 by anonymous
She gave you unconditional love and support and you left in her final day now you cant do anything so pray that her soul rests in peace.
Commented Feb 21, 2012 by anonymous
wow you are truly a horrible person, no wonder you hate yourself