I got what I deserved.
Posted Oct 31, 2011 by anonymous | 406 views | 2 comments
I had no right to love you, to need you. I have a wonderful home life, gorgeous children and a husband who loves me. It wasn't you who I was in love with, it was the idea of an escape. Of for once, not having the entire world on my shoulders. You provided me with a fantasy world for 7 years that got me out of the shit I swim in. I didn't act, but I can't say I wouldn't have if given the opportunity. You've disappeared before. It didn't hurt so bad then. Now...it does. I needed one person in my life who I could pretend didn't just need me, they wanted me. Now you won't return my texts and I feel crazy and alone. I deserve it. I had no business talking to you. I had no business depending on you for any outlet. I miss you, but you are bad for me. I'm done. Done done done. I need to focus on what I have and know the grass isn't greener. I deserve this heartache. I deserve all of it because of the potential for what I could've done. I am going to grow up now and let you go.
Commented Nov 2, 2011 by anonymous
You were playing hide the sausage with this guy for 7 years? Hate to tell you this but in that amount of time someone surely knows or at least suspects something. Taking odds on whether she'll be given more slack compared to a man who was cheating.
Commented Oct 31, 2011 by anonymous
At least you got out before you wrecked your life.