stay alive... Jason is worth it

One day this will all be a distant memory at least the part about everyone hating you. Once your in college those people will not matter. The memories you may keep are the goods ones of the friend who kissed you so sweetly and told they loved you. Its not the quantity of friends you have but the quality.so if the quality of the one who kissed you in your darkest hour is as you have described then just one good friend is enough. I speak from experience. I went through the same thing in high school but now college is way different and high school and middle school seem like 100 years ago and now i wonder why i ever wasted time worrying about the people who didn't like me and played stupid games. Life is funny like that. This one girl who was super mean to me, she is not in college, she got pregnant right after graduation,she works at a pizzeria, where my neighbors mentally challenged son works. He is mildly retarded and he is her boss...everytime i go home i stop in for a slice of pizza and see her and on my way out laugh to myself because look where i am and look where my bully is :) she works a dead end job, has no real education, got really fat, etc....hang in there o.k.i promise you once your off to college these people will be but a pin dot in your memory. I hope I have helped you in a small way.. I know you can do this, hang in there if it gets too bad, report then to guidance counselor or principle for bullying you.there are a lot of laws out now to protect you. Slander is what it is called when someone spreads lies about you and they can be sued for it..so can the school for not putting a stop to it once its reported. can you guess what i am going to college for.....pre-law lol...

dont email you honey, i know what im doing. im giving hope more than i can say for you.

Azalea. What a beautiful name.

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Hi azalea, I'm Linda, go to your school counselor and principal and tell everything even about your suicide be honest and tell your parents too. i was teased too badly caz i got zitz on my face!!!! thats something i'll never forget. my mom fought the school to stop those kids from teasing m and i am thankful for my mom's love for me (she's in a hospital now (sobs badly) and i miss her terribly. So does my dog shes right next to me like crazy glue. I'm 51 years old, 19 years clean from cocaine and I'm still growing up. Be thankful you have parents they were there before you were. I had a best friend from high school and we grew apart. In fact I still have another best friend who lives in queens, ny. I was from ny now in california. 'i don't think anybody cares' thats how I felt in middle school when i got teased too badly. I didn't know how to stick up for myself. I'm an only child. After being 40 years old... I got tough.... but smarter. now my next door neighbor hates me when i called her before i left for a 12 step meeting. I left a message on her machine... but she had to bring the 4 dogs in when they were barking and i don't know whats she's doing in her bathroom.... none of my business right? 3 dogs are hers. You will meet people and they will go.... all part of growing up azalea. i stay in contact with my best friend in queens ny. you will meet other people. just give it time ok? by the way do you have a big pad and pen/cil? write down your feelings honey..... all of it. then shred it, toss it in a pale that no one will go through it. or just type it on your puter screen.... Then you will feel better. and another day if you have more anger write it down honey. but most of all and this could be hard for you but it is a suggestion from me but its in the bible.... when you forgive others (from a distance its better that way) jesus will forgive you. i dont know how religious you are, that's your thing not mine. and if you see your ex best friend or anyone bothers you at school... tell him/her that you forgive them and jesus loves you!!!! That will throw them off. It will also show how mature you are. listen... im tired and its 930 here in california.... email me if you need a friend ok? Im Linda and i hope to God you do better. dont forget tell your parents. linda ilovepadrepio68@gmail.com. once we email each other i'll give you my cell number later. call me leary i got burned too from other people. night Linda †