I can't trust my father
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 164 views | 0 comments
I don't know what I want from my father. Back in march he pushed me off a chair and proceeded in trying to chuck it at me but then saw my mum coming so he threw it in her direction. That night my mum and I went to stay with my cousins and we got a court order put on my dad. I went almost three months without talking to my dad, but, one day I was ill so I was off school and he was coming round to collect some of his things, so I texted him telling him that I was at home and that I wanted to see him. He has never apologised to me sincerely, for anything (he has done other things in the past, such as chucking books at me and going off with his gf at christmas instead of being with me). The thing is that I don't know what I want from him, sometimes I want him to be here, and other times I want him to be as far away from me as possible. I don't want him to gain my trust as I know that he'll just do something to loose it again. I want him to love me, but he never really has. I'm still so mixed up, and it hurts me everyday.
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