I can't shake my feelings!
Posted Oct 29, 2012 by anonymous | 317 views | 2 comments
This is an update from the confession I posted in July about liking my older cousin. He has a girlfriend now, and I'm happy for him. But in the back of my mind, I still have fantasies o him and wonder if we could ever be together. But maybe it's never going to be my dream come true. I've always liked my cousin X but haven't come out to him--too afraid to--and haven't visited him when his parents (my cousin and step cousin) weren't home so I could get head lol But my boyfriend recently broke up with me a month ago, and I've felt very alone due to the lack of gay boys here. All my cousins, including X, used to gay bash me as a kid so that should say something about who he is. So now I'll be waiting for him... I've been secretly liking him since I was 13... But I always have and always will be.... Now I've been wanting a relationship but I just have to stop caring about wanting one and it will come. I'm now openly gay too (except to most family) But for some reason I can't shake my feelings for X... How can I try to start at least?
Commented Nov 2, 2012 by anonymous
Thanks for the comment. I know I should look out for me but he almost wanted to kill himself 2 n... Then again he said his current boy saved him. I'll be there for him as a best friend with emotional attachment.. An extreme one... But most guys I'm talking to be online have boyfriends and I don't know why but I can't take that. There's no single LGBT boys in my town so I look online for guys but they're out of state.... Plus I did long distance dating with my ex. But he was my very first serious relationship.... And I didn't know how to move on, although he isn't attracted to me anymore. I finally told him I still have feelings for him last night but he isn't into me either....
Commented Oct 30, 2012 by anonymous
You need to be faithful for you X.