
I am killing myself come December.
Posted Nov 18, 2012 by anonymous | 532 views | 11 comments
It does seem petty, I know. The most ridiculous thing is that I am waiting for exams to be over. I have only ever really been good at academics, and school is the only thing I can ever get right, but now I just don't care for anything. I want to make my mum proud, she'll be proud if I succeed in them. So I haven't been eating or sleeping and only studying in preparation for the exams. It'll be one good thing she can remember about me, seen as she never cared for me as a human being anyway. I am also waiting for my sister's birthday to pass. It would be the worst thing to have her birthday overtaken by my death, so she is going to have her day. I will kill myself a week later.
Commented Dec 1, 2012 by anonymous
regardless of how bad your life is, there will never be a reason to kill yourself. No matter how bad it gets you can always just walk. (or crawl or wheel.) My wife's ex jumped off the 14th floor of a beach hotel. I never met him but I am so mad at him. I love him because he cared about her for a while... But he was selfish and crazy. He didn't even mention her in his note or will. She became a sociopath. Homocidal. Suicidal. A few nights ago (off her meds for over a month, and on her period) she threw 2 knives at me and then tried to stab me in the neck with scissors. Whether or not you see it, people WILL be affected by your decision. I have attempted to shoot myself in the head THREE times since last November. I always keep a round in the chamber... All three times the gun I grabbed to do the job was miraculously empty. I would likely have shot my neighbor as well one of the times. And two of those three times were a direct response to my wife's insanity. Suicide effects other people in huge ways. Always. So STOP thinking about yourself and find a better way. If you're in school and feel like a slave... STOP school. Your existence is far more valuable than your education. I typed this out on Xbox and it has taken me an entire hour and I work soon. Dont make me regret wasting my time on you... With honest love, Jonathan.
Commented Nov 27, 2012 by anonymous
Times are chnangig for the better if I can get this online!
Commented Nov 23, 2012 by Kayla_98
Why dont you see that people who you dont know and dont know you, care about you heaps ?! dont you see that people care about you. you just havent found the right people who will be there for you every step of the way. But Understand this ! i WILL always be here for you if you need me. and the first big paragraph you got on this post was me. We are similar to each other. and believe me i want to be there for you ! every day if i can ! please message me !
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
That's right. Study hard, pass your tests, wait till after your sisters birthday and then off yourself just before Christmas. Great. Smart. Good thinking. Boy. I'll bet they'll be really, really sorry, too Proud AND sorry.
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
*your (sorry for the misspells)
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
Don't kill yourself. And you don't need to please you mother. Worry about pleasing yourself and stop quitting on yourself. If you keep living you life in a manner where you only run around to please people, you will drive yourself mad. Finish school and pursue your dreams if you have to. I think what you need is a damn good meal, and a damn good break. And love too. Lots of it. All night and day....And back and forth......And back and forth......In and out..... you get the point. xD. Best wishes :D.
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
Life is a precious thing dear. Do not spoil it by killing yourself.
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
I was I. You're position and I hope it's not to late. I'm 19 years old about a year ago I had an amazing life I had a car a house and beautiful woman. It all ended one night because I got accused of rape I fought for 7 ,onths to get my name cleared I finally did but I'm a registered sex offender for a crime I didn't commit. I got both apartments of mine both cars and I lost my child. All because of that I Al's got discharged from the military. But I manned the fuck up and did what I had to do because I know my family needs me I'm living in my uncles basement and bar Eh getting by but I won't kill myself that shit os selfish how fair is that to your mum and your family wanna make her proud join the damn army go to war be a hero there is nothing more healthy than the bond between a soldier and others so my friend make your desision be a coward or be a man or woman. Thnk of your sister where does that put her
Commented Nov 19, 2012 by anonymous
don't do it I don't know your reason for wanting to kill your self bet I would like to know please contact me at fearfreak101@yahoo.com
Commented Nov 18, 2012 by anonymous
don't do it
Commented Nov 18, 2012 by anonymous
you know were similar to each other. ive been addicted to cutting for a couple of years.. i nearly killed myself cutting numerous times before. ive tried hanging myself numerous times too but the rope always broke. another thing, i see demons and ghosts. been possessed. im starting to think its the demon keeping me alive for some reason. maybe more shit it wants to put me through. i'm only 14 and a half but ive been bullied since year 3 because im short. im 145cm tall. and im ugly and dumb and failing school. i've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and ADHD. i've done marijuana to attempt to stop cutting but i got addicted to that aswell. then my parents found out and flushed it all down the toilet. but dont kill yourself. trust me. no matter what happens someone has a life worse than yours and they're still alive fighting off depression and everything else thrown at them. please dont kill yourself, im here to talk if you want. :)