How heavy the burden
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 82 views | 0 comments
I struggle constantly with pornography and other sexual sin. I have been a slave to it for most of my life, and have not cared until the last few years when I met Christ. But old habits and addictions are not always removed by Christ upon acceptance of His sacrifice. I have been a slave to sexual immorality for so much of my life I do not even know what the absolute freedom of it would feel like. I have sought God to remove this thorn in the flesh, usually with tremendous weeping and brokenness. God will soemtimes lift the burden, but Satan always come back and I always fall. I want release, or at the very least, the knowledge and strength to say 'NEVER AGAIN!!!' But I have sinned again. I have thrown the sacrifice of Christ back in His face so that I can yet again indulge my flesh. I feel so awful right now. I just want to go and find a dark corner and weep. I am a sinner, I have betrayed the trust of those around me, even though they do not know it. I have btrayed Christ. I have betrayed my God. The only comfort I have is that I know He still loves me. But how do I let Him do that? How can I accept that love? The sacrifice of Christ is so phenomenal, and I know we will never understand the gravity of it until we are in hevaen. Thank you, God.
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