I am a heterosexual man addicted to cock, both up my ass and down my throat, and recently I have become addicted to eating cum. I like to exhibit myself and have quite a few ways to get myself seen. I watch a lot of gay porn and masturbate to it. Every weekend I go cruise the parks and suck and swallow whoever I can. This all started, I think, in my over-sexed family. Incest was rampant and I was getting it from all sides. My mother would wash me in the washtub in the middle of the floor of the shack while my sisters watched ... and sometimes participated. Since I am uncircumcised my mother took a lot of time stroking my foreskin back and forth over my head. She said she had to make it get hard so she could see if the foreskin could make it over the fully erect glans. Every bath night my mother would stroke me hard and my sisters would watch. Eventually my mother taught my sisters to wash me and check my glans in case she was away or busy. They used me in many other ways too. When my parents caught my older sister showing me her budding adolescent boobies and shoving my hand into her panties I was moved out of the “kids room” of the two bedroom shack and in to sleep with my father while my mother shared a double with youngest sis. I was about ten and didn't know any better. My father seemed happy to go along with the arrangement. The first night he stripped me nude and spooned me against his belly and rubbed my bottom against his crotch. He immediately became hard and started rubbing it between my cheeks. Shortly he paused and kind of withdrew only to return with some cold grease on his penis and the head being slowly worked into my tight, tiny ten year old anus. That was the ritual every night but after a while he put it in my mouth and see if he could cum. It didn't work; he told me I was too young. But later, around 12, 13, 14 I got good at sucking cock. By then he was not only fucking me every night but he was teaching me to suck him off and swallow whenever we were down at the barn doing chores. Often on the weekends several of his buddies would drop by and they were free to use me as they wanted. Mostly they wanted head and soon I was sucking every one of them to an exciting explosion of warm cream in my mouth. So it is little wonder when I married, in my damaged condition, I started identifying my sexy mother-in-law with my own mother. Since my own mother was pleased by me standing in front of her and my sisters with an erection, naturally I started showing myself off, huge, hard cock to my MiL. The first time I did this I walked into the bathroom nude and fully erect and rubbed my cock on her ass as I squeezed between her and the wall. I climbed into the shower and jerked off a load right in front of her. Then I closed the curtain and shook. She didn't flinch or raise an alarm or tell anybody. I was expecting to be totally humiliated and to have my marriage end on the spot. Instead I continued to flash her every chance I could get and she seemed to go along with setting herself up to be flashed. When they bought a house with a sun-room/hot-tub arrangement I could spend almost the whole day nude and could stalk her around the lower levels with my cock raging. She always pretended not to see or something but she never stopped me and she never ran away. The other side of the story her husband walked in on me stalking and harassing his wife with my hard naked cock and had the most unusual reaction. He pushed me down to my knees and shoved his cock in to my mouth ... right in front of his wife who was watching closely. I remembered how to suck cock from my childhood although I had been exclusively hetero since then and was devoted to pussy. But here I was totally aroused, fully enthusiastic about having a cock in my mouth and being expected to finish it. Which I did. It was great to have a mouthful of warm, creamy cum in my mouth again. It was great to have an adult man, this father figure, forcing his cock deep into my mouth trying to get it down my throat, slightly asphyxiating me in the process. It was so wonderful to bring him to his cum-spurting climax and make him pleased. And so it was that along with showing my huge cock to my MiL anytime I wanted he was coming by for another cum swallow blow job. This was great fun. I would easily swallow two or three of his loads per day anytime we visited. It was just like pleasing my dad again. It ended before I learned to deep-throat when my wife caught me flashing her mother. I was ejected and it was all my fault but my experience with my FiL inspired me to learn to deep throat and go forth and do for men what I couldn't do for my fathers. It was always about the cock, pleasing the cock, treating the cock, loving and worshipping the cock. By now it was the HIV scare and although the cum was wonderful and tasty, I sucked on latex. But the cum was just the side dish in a meal of sucking and throating hard warm cock and making him cum. I got so good. I could relax so much and take in some big ones. I learned to swallow like operate my throat muscles even when I had a cock wedged all the way down. In order to find cock for practising my new art, I had to cruise the parks and the bathhouses and the internet for cock to suck, for daddies to please. I binged between girlfriends. I never cheated but I did exhibit myself. I had Lycra tights and arranged my huge cock down one thigh and my balls down the other totally outlined and visible in the Lycra. Finally I gave up on women after one too many shrieking banshees and focused all my sexual energy on men. From that point on I was having sex with at least one hundred men a year. Something loosened up. First condom only then I wanted to taste it and suck it then put the condom on. Then it became if you want to cum in my mouth you will have to wear a condom. Finally the day came when I was deepthroating a well hung lad in the park before he did me in the ass and he came way too soon and I got a couple of big shots down my throat and another couple in my mouth as he pulled out. God it tasted good. It was so familiar to have cum shooting in my mouth, for the creamy feel on my tongue and the back of my mouth, the temperature and the taste all a perfect snack. And I was hooked. At least I started sucking longer and harder and becoming even a better deepthroater to ensure that many more lucky accidents. And so I did. In my new city, a gay heartland, cruising Friday night, Saturday afternoon and evening and Sunday afternoon, I suck and deep-throat almost 15 cocks per weekend on average. And I drink 15 mouthfuls of cum. It IS fantastic. So after all these years of sucking cock and pleasing daddy and worshipping the cock it has shifted to being about drinking cum. Sucking cock and being the best deepthroater in the park, bar or bathhouse used to be about worshipping cock and getting guys off. Now the worship and sucking and throating of beautiful throbbing cocks and getting the guys off is just what needs to be done to get a mouthful of cum. I am an addict. I am totally controlled by the need to drink cum. I am completely enslaved to the warm, white cream I can suck out of any man's cock. I suck and swallow about 1000 men per year now in order to feel like I am getting enough guys pleased and enough cum in my mouth. I live off a pension and some of the guys give me donations. And lots of pot and stuff. I do nothing else but suck and swallow cum or think about where I am going next for cum or who is coming over to feed me cum or if there are enough poppers to help me get the next big one down my throat. That is all there is in my life - cock down my throat and cum in my belly. I have no friends, family, hobbies, recreation, outings, anything. I have eating cum and everything that goes into getting more and more cum to swallow as my craving increases. How do I stop?