I'm 17, and he is 15.... at his going away party this past friday, we were dared to kiss and we did.... and i loved it. all night i kept imagining pinning him against the porch railing and kissing him or walking up behind him and sliding my hands up his shirt.. his skin was so hot and smooth and sexy.... i would purposefully walk past him so that i could feel him smack my ass (we do this all the time no matter where we are).... i'm kind overweight and i've never had a bf, but i've kissed 3 guys... this is the first time i've kissed the same guy twice....the first time i kissed him was over a half year ago bc our friends commented that we were practically a couple.... at this time he was still into guys and girls... i secretly think he still likes girl.. and i feel like in a way, he might be attracted to me.... idk what's wrong with me though! i know i'm straight, but i can't help but be insanely attracted to the stereotype hot gay guys! i'm an actress and we have quite a few in my theatre company.... that's the problem... i really like my friend and he's in my theatre company...but i'm afraid that if i tell him how i feel, he will reject me.... I really really like him! and he's 100% straight.. i know that for a fact...but i don't want him to turn me down bc i can't keep my eyes, hands, and lips off our gay friends! i'm so afraid of what my relationships with my gays will have on the possibility of a relationship with my friend.. but i can't get them outta my head! (it doesn't help that they are as much all over me as i am all over them) I've never done anything with a gay guy (other than kiss and it's only the one guy! the other two guys were straight) i'm very innocent in what i have done (not what i've said or thought but whatevs) ... anyways... i need help! how do i make it clear to this guy that i like him without saying it and how do i get my gay friend outta my head!??! i need to fix this fast! our first practice for our next show is on friday! and if i get a callback/solo i could be seeing him as early as wednesday!!!!! HELP!!!