Guilt
Posted Mar 2, 2011 by anonymous | 130 views | 0 comments
As a child my older brother used to harrass me... I didn't exactly understand why he was feeling me up or even if it was wrong... when I was 11 he penetrated me... I can't say rape... because I didn't wrestle with him. When I was old enough to understand that what he was doing was wrong.. I made him stop by threatening to tell our parents.. I never told my parents. Our mom had a very delicate heart problem... My uncle used to sexually harrass me and he even tried to kidnap me once to become his sex slave.... He went to pick me up from junior high school and he told me he was going to give me a ride home... instead he took me to a holiday inn and raped me .. I was only 14. When I was 15 I started a baby sitting job and one day the father of the kids I used to babysit, called me into his bedroom he said he was going to pay me for the week... I locked the door and dragged me into his walk in closet... and he worked in hospital.. all I know is that he stabbed a needle into my neck and the next thing I know I wake up with this man on top of me, raping me... i was too groggy and even though I attempted to scream everything was a stir. I did report him to the police and he got sentenced 15 years in prison. Then when I was 19 I did something really disgusting. I had sex with my sister's boyfriend, he sneaked into the shower one day and it just happened... I feel so guilty for everything.. and I can't figure out why these things happen to me.
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