whats happening to me... what im doing is wrong... my guilt says that its a waist of time.. I know better than this... but I find an excuse to go visit my brother..... when in reality its her that I go see.... no its wrong.... she's only 17 yrs old.. worst is that she's my brother's wife younger sister that lives with them. im 2x her age !! im 29 living with my 42 yr old girlfriend. but I cant help it.. when she looks at me I smile in the inside !! but again I got sooo much to lose ! ive tried so many times to show my affection to her.. I send her txt most of the time she answers it back.. but I think she knows its wrong too.... but I cant help it either...its like chance find ways for me to touch her hands... I sit in the dinning table.. and she sits on the couch !! she know that im looking at her @ any chance I get... our eyes meet for couple seconds then we both look away.. in fear that somone will notice... over the past weeks ive sit across from her on the dinning table... playing games with the rest of my family.. I intentionally touch her legs with my legs under the table... or when I see her standing alone... I walk behind her and my hand slides across her back as I walk... she stands silent and doesnt move either... no reaction as well.. I quess she knows that there will be consequences too...my family is fucked up.. my older brother had kids with her older sister.. while my 2nd brother married her younger sister.. and me trying to get with her baby sister.. ive never said anything to her about my feelings... but ive shown it to her ! I step back and I think what the fuck im doing.. I come to my sences....but when I see her... they all drown..... its a forbidden attraction that will not end well.... in the end I might lose a brother..... and my current g.f..... and not to mention my folks ... and how they gonna judge me as well.... but anyways dont comment if your not gonna say anything nice.. this isnt for you either.. its just a way to get it off my chest !!!