Fear of failing
Posted Oct 12, 2014 by anonymous | 120 views | 0 comments
Publically, I’m super confident in nearly all aspects of my life, but privately I am terrified of failure. There are days when I’d rather die now so I would be remembered as a strong and driven person that ”went too soon.” I’d rather die working toward something than live as a public failure. If I’m not consistently moving forward I feel like I’m falling behind. Some nights I can feel my anxiety rising because I imagine a future where I don’t end up with my dream job, my ideal husband. The thought that my life could one day end up anything less than what I want keeps me up ar night. The thought that I could fail is humiliating to me, and it hasn’t even happened to me yet. But the fact that success hasn’t happened yet either feels like a failure. I’m so young. Why do I feel so paranoid about everything falling into place when my life has just begun?
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