family curse
Posted Oct 31, 2013 by anonymous | 606 views | 3 comments
I am a 21 year old male my sober religious father left my mother, fighting, when I was young. I have a drunk step dad who always got drunk violent and a step mother wjo tries to make my dad against me and my older brother and sisters. My oldest sister got pregnant when she was 18 and I was 11 . I seen her live in the ghetto with her children. The same year My second oldest sister who was 13 told me she got sexually abused by my shit uncle when she was 5. I started smoking pot when I was 13 with my older brother, he was 17 and was in a gang(not active but made him dillusional . Next year my brother got, whiped" for this girl and got her pergnant. They fought a lot, and eventually my brother striked her and she left him and did not allow him to see the babe, my niece. He fell for depression and was stuck in his mind. Through out high school I ignored my family and focused on school, weed , my guitar working out and math- I enjoyed my math and i was good at it to. My senior year was the year that changed my life forever. Me and my two only friends started to smoke crystal meth with my older brother who at the time was already useing. Then this girl. I fell for her. we got together. She was my first real girlfriend but I messed with other girls before. She pulled me alway from my friends my guitar my school and all just to prove I loved her. We started arguing a lot she humilated me embarrassed me and it hit my pride and perspective of the relationship life that I was not ready for. My friends and my brother got hooked on crystal wich destroys the human body. June 17 2010, 6 month anniversary with my girl and a month after high school I found out I was going to a be father. And panick depression and anxiety hit me extremely hard. I finally open my eyes to reality and realize wat my life is surrounded by my mother pain my sister's poverty my brothers lonelyness, my friends drugs. Since november 2010 I have non stop been working getting money for my daughter and making sure she has everything she needsor the most I can give but now thing are getting bad I don't know who I am I have not visit my mother or brothers. My brother is dying of the drug amx no one can help....I'm tired my heart heart hurts. I feel like.....dead.
Commented Nov 10, 2013 by anonymous
your story touched me too man. That's deep..you see the underlying negative influences of the surrounding people in your life, and most importantly how it has affected you. Give them your love but don't let them bring you down, for you and your daughter.
Commented Oct 31, 2013 by anonymous
dude, your life may have been fucked up, but try not to let that life be your daughter's life as well. If it is a curse, make sure it ends with you.
Commented Oct 31, 2013 by anonymous
hang in there bro.. and know this one thing, that the walk if life is yours an yours alone. at the end of the day its all about YOU! Dont stress yourself.. the peeps u see on the street erryday have their fair share of trouble so ur not alone. and it will get better for u if ur courageous enough. peace.