im 24 now... when i was 14 my sister met this guy. they started dating and soon after he moved into my house with my family. their plan was to have him stay in my sisters room with her while they saved for a few months to get their own place. well a few weeks after he started staying there...i was in my room..alone...and i assumed i was home alone. all of the sudden i get a knock on my door and it was my sisters boyfriend. he asked if he could come in and "watch tv with me". me, being the 14 year old in the situation, didnt see a thing wrong with that and agreed. he sits down on my bed and i didnt want to be weird so i sat in a chair separate from the bed. we sat in silence for i guess a couple minutes and then he asked if i wanted to come lay in the bed with him..i hesitated..and then i started to get a little afraid of him..he was really big..he's 6'6 and about 250 pounds..i got really intimidated after he kept asking and asking so i finally agreed. i lied down next to him and he put his arms around me and i felt so uncomfortable and scared. i dont know why i didnt just tell him to fuck off and get the hell out of my room..i guess it was my age/immaturity. he starts kissing me...i was frozen on the inside and i knew it was wrong..but i just let him do it. he starts touching me all over and it makes me sick to admit it but i guess at the time i liked it. i finally snapped out of it and told him to stop and he left the room. the next few days were awkward. i wouldnt make eye contact with him.. and i basically tried to avoid him at all costs. when i couldnt avoid him he would stare so hard at me..right in front of my family and my sister. he was 22 years old at the time by the way. throughout the next few weeks a few different things happened. like for example, when he would walk by me he would rub against me and stare at me for uncomfortably long periods of time. a part of me loved the attention..i mean i was 14..i had never received this amount of attention before..especially from a grown man. i started to like him. i hate even typing that because now i know all he was doing was taking advantage of a young girl. he eventually convinced me to have sex with him and i lost my virginity to him. he told me he was in love with me and wanted to run away with me when i was only 15 years old old. he was 23 by then. it was crazy. they finally moved out and it continued for a few months after that. when i was 16 i met a new guy and completely fell for him and everything stopped. by this time my sisters boyfriend had become her husband and it just became to much. im 24 ... and theyve been married for almost 9 years now. its makes me sick to be around him. i know i was wrong for doing what i did with him..but at the same time i really cant imagine how a 14 year old can be held responsible. he was basically the age i am now, then. and i couldnt imagine coming on to a 14 year old child. and the worst thing, when the unfortunate time occurs that me and him are alone he still stares at me and makes faces at me even when i make it obvious that i have no interest what so ever. once, me and my boyfriend and my sister and her husband were at the beach and we all agreed on sharing a hotel room to save money. of course we had separate bed though. i was 23 and he's 31 by now. i wake up in the middle of the night (its pitch black in the room) to whispers. i hear my name and i sit up..and i hear "come to the bathroom". i thought it was my boyfriend so i get up and stumble to the bathroom..i turn on the light and theres my sisters husband. i said "what? what do you want"? he literally had the nerve to whip his ERECT dick out and ask me for a blowjob. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. this guy is not only a pedophile, but he's a lunatic. anyway..i could never tell my sister. my sister is very emotional and honestly i would be worried about her mental health if i ever told her. she is totally convinced that she found a great guy..and my sisters happiness is important to me especially after the guilt ive gone through from what happened. i know the right thing to do is to tell her...i feel like i was taken advantage of at a young age by man who should of know better. i feel the only thing i did wrong was not immediately tell her the first time he touched me. i dont know. what do you guys think? should i let it go? or should i sit my sister down?.................it bothers me so much. i told my boyfriend about it and i literally had to hold him down to stop him from killing my brother in law.