Destroyed Life
Posted May 18, 2014 by Bear | 272 views | 2 comments
I suffer from severe bi-polar disorder complicated with OCD, social phobia and PTSD. I never thought I would have anything but meaningless sex and short, unsatisfying relationships. I met a wonderful woman when I was younger, fell for her and things got physical. We had lots, and lots of unprotected sex. Like the young idiots we were. She got pregnant and we got more settled. She ended up dropping out of high school while I worked what ever jobs I could get to support us. With a job history that showed an inability to keep a job it became more and more difficult to hold a job. We moved to a new city, where I had a good job lined up, but in the week it took us to relocate the job no longer existed. Stranded in an area without a support structure we soon ended up homeless and lost our children. We left that state for another and tried to restart our lives. I am fighting for disability while she is struggling to finish her schooling. Every morning I feel lucky to know her, and hate myself for destroying her life. Without me and the issues I have, would she be happier? Would she have children at all? would she be successful? no one can answer these questions, but they haunt me all the time.
Commented Jun 4, 2014 by anonymous
Take the help of counselor for the same.
Commented May 19, 2014 by anonymous
No you didnt. these things happen, she loves you as much as you love her even tho you cannot show it all the time, just do your best so you wont let the guilt override your relationship